Clementine

Realize it! - Chapter 9

2009-02-26T13:46:23Z

Chapter 9 is here!

Hope you like it.

Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Beta:mightymaeve
Warnings: Some little things, nothing to worry about, I guess.

“He told me that he loves me,” Morinaga suddenly blurted out.

Hiroto almost dropped the cup that he was drying. Morinaga was, indeed, quiet for a long time, but he didn’t expect to hear that all of a sudden.

“Who told you what?” Maybe he heard it wrong.

“Masaki-san told me that he loves me,” Morinaga said again. He gulped down the rest of his drink and felt his head spin.

“Uh…” Hiroto knew that Masaki wanted to get back together with Morinaga, but he never thought things would go this way. “Are you sure he's not just saying that to confuse you? I mean, we know what he did to you in the past…”

“I know, I know!” Morinaga was angry that Hiroto was accusing Masaki. He didn’t like the fact that someone was badmouthing him. “But he already said he was sorry.”

“Okay. So, what did you do after he told you that?” Hiroto sighed, as he poured more drink into Morinaga’s cup, mumbling something like he was drinking too much.

Morinaga blushed at the memory. How could he face Masaki after what had happened?

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Masaki stared at Morinaga, a confident smile on his lips. By the younger man’s reaction, he was pretty sure that he didn’t have to repeat himself. But he would, if he had to.

“Hey, Tetsuhiro, are you okay?” He asked, just to make sure. It had been a while since either of them had said anything.

Morinaga was still trying to make sense out of what he had heard. Did he hear right? Had Masaki really told him he loved him? It sounded like a dream, a memory of those many times Morinaga had fantasized of hearing Masaki say that to him. It was like he was back in time. He couldn't count how many times he'd wished for those words.

Masaki moved closer again while watching Morinaga. He noticed that his ex-lover even forgot to blink. He didn’t know if that was a good thing or not. Maybe he'd confessed too early?

“Tetsuhiro, say something.” Masaki didn’t mind the silence, but he just wanted to make sure that Morinaga was all right.

Morinaga blinked several times before his eyes came into focus again. He didn’t know how much time he had spaced out, but Masaki looked really worried.

“Ah, I’m sorry, Masaki-san. I got a little bit distracted…”

“It’s fine.” Masaki sounded relieved, while he rested his head on Morinaga’s chest. “Are you okay? Your heart is beating so fast…” He muttered as he closed his eyes, focusing on the rhythmic sound of Morinaga's heart.

Morinaga turned red with that small gesture. He wanted to cling onto that gentleness. Again, he felt that need for someone's warmth; it almost didn’t matter who it was. He just wanted a little bit of affection.

Masaki didn’t care that he received no answer. The words didn’t matter. He could feel Morinaga’s body reacting, his heart beating faster and faster and his heat rising.

“You know, Tetsuhiro,” Masaki started, raising his head so that their eyes would meet. “I dream every night about you. I dream about the time we were together. About how you whispered in my ear,” Masaki spoke in a whisper, his mouth almost kissing Morinaga’s ear. “How you touched me.” He moved his hands around Morinaga’s chest, all the way down to his hips. “How you made love to me.” Masaki moved his hips against Morinaga’s, who moaned at the sudden pressure.

Morinaga’s eyes began to loose focus and his mind started to not work properly. That was the effect Masaki had on him ever since they were young. And now that Masaki was consciously seducing him, it became even harder to resist.

But then, Morinaga suddenly remembered Senpai. The glasses, the tobacco smell, the yells, the lab… The lab! He had to go to the lab!

“No!” Morinaga overreacted, without really wanting to. Shocked by the suddenness, Masaki became hurt. “I… Sorry, Masaki-san! I’m really sorry! But… I can’t do this.”

It was a funny feeling to describe. Morinaga wanted Masaki; he knew it and nothing would change that even if he wanted it to. He wanted to be inside Masaki. On the other hand, there was Senpai. He felt guilty, like he was betraying not only Senpai, but his own feelings as well. Caught between his first love and the man he loved now, Morinaga didn’t know what to do.

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“And then I… ran away.” Morinaga was hiding his face in his hands. He felt strangely embarrassed.

“Just like that? Without saying anything else?” Hiroto was stunned. It really wasn’t like Morinaga to run away.

“I didn’t know what to do! I was afraid I was going to give up. Masaki-san has this effect on me…” Morinaga laid his head on the bar counter, looking totally beaten.

“How long has he been staying at your apartment?” Hiroto suddenly asked, grabbing Morinaga’s attention.

“Uh… Four days… Why?”

“He made a huge mess in so little time, huh?” The man looked distracted; he even stopped whipping the cups and looked very thoughtful. “Are you sure you don’t love him anymore, Angel-kun?” Hiroto had spoken very seriously and slowly, but still, Morinaga couldn’t believe what he had heard.

“What?! What are you saying, Hiroto-kun?! I love Senpai, you know that!” How could Hiroto say something like that? After those hundreds of times that Morinaga went to the bar, whining about Senpai, he was sure Hiroto understood how he felt.

“It is possible to love two different people at the same time, Angel-kun. I mean, think about it. If you didn’t love this Masaki guy anymore, he would never be able to shake your relationship with your Senpai that much in so little time.”

Both of them fell into silence. Hiroto’s words kept playing over and over through Morinaga’s head. He was sure that he loved Senpai, but what if Masaki still occupied a space in his heart? It was not like they broke up because they hated each other. Their relationship got cut really suddenly, they didn’t even have time to say goodbye. Maybe there still were things Morinaga wanted to do with Masaki.

“Maybe…” Morinaga felt his mouth go dry and it was hard to speak. This sudden idea was starting to bother him. “Maybe you’re right, Hiroto-kun…”

He thought about Senpai and Masaki. They were so different: How could he love both of them at the same time? On the other hand, perhaps their differences were what stabalized and fed Morinaga's contrasting needs: the violent and straight Senpai and the gentle and gay Masaki. Even if Masaki wasn’t present those many years, the mere feeling Morinaga still had towards him and the memories of their time together was more than enough to compensate for the lack of love from Senpai. But now that the man himself was here, he didn’t need to rely on old memories anymore: He could build new ones.

“But I can’t abandon Senpai. I love him so much I feel that… I just can’t go away from him…” Morinaga seemed suddenly tired, like he had run a long way and now that his breath was back, he needed to lie down.

“But you want to be with Masaki, don’t you?” Hiroto was back to cleaning the cups, though his attention was on his friend.

“I…” Morinaga didn’t want to know the answer to that. He could still feel Masaki arms around his neck, his hands gripping his waist and hips, and his warm body pressed against his own. He couldn’t lie anymore. “I do. What should I do, Hiroto-kun? I don’t want to cheat on Senpai!”

“It’s not like you two are lovers or anything.” Hiroto saw how angry and hurt Morinaga became, but he had to open his friend’s eyes. “He denies it every time. He also never said that he loves you. He's just with you out of sympathy. I’m sorry if I’m being too harsh, Angel-kun, but I need to help you.”

“But you were always the one supporting me! How can you say this now?!” Morinaga wasn’t angry at Hiroto’s words, sometimes he himself thought things like that, but he would have given up on Senpai a long time ago if it wasn’t for Hiroto.

“Because you don’t need your Senpai anymore, Angel-kun! Can’t you see what he’s doing to you? You’re drowning yourself in him, but what are you going to do when he meets a girl? You know very well the he is not a homo! I know I supported you, I really wanted you to be happy with your Senpai, but it’s been some time since you two started having sex and nothing has changed. He keeps rejecting you.” Hiroto was mad at Morinaga’s insistence on having Senpai. At the beginning he was being supportive because he believed they would be a couple in no time, but now it was getting ridiculous.

Morinaga flinched at the mention of Senpai getting a girlfriend. Every day he was afraid of that. He thought of Senpai kissing and hugging and having sex with a woman. Though he was sure Senpai would tell him before he did anything, it still scared him. He didn’t want anyone else to have Senpai.

“I told you I don’t like Masaki, but I feel that you’ll be happier with him than you will ever be with your Senpai. Your relationship with him has reached a dead-end. There’s nowhere else for it to go. Give up, Angel-kun, before it gets out of control and you end up hurting yourself more than you already have.”

Morinaga could feel a bitter taste in his mouth. He knew Hiroto was right. If he really loved Senpai, he should stop torturing him.

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“Morinaga!” Souichi was pissed. His stupid kouhai hadn’t showed up at the lab. He tried calling his cell phone several times, but he never got an answer.

Looking down, Souichi could see a pair of shoes. But they weren’t Morinaga’s.

“Welcome home, Tatsumi-san,” Masaki said, with that same old smile, the smirk that screamed he could do anything he wanted. It only pissed Souichi off even more.

“Shut up!” Souichi took off his shoes and entered the home. He was still trying to figure out where the hell Morinaga was and he didn’t want that guy to interfere.

“Are you looking for Tetsuhiro?” Masaki asked with a sarcastic tone, crossing his arms and following the other man with his eyes.

“It’s none of your business!”

Souichi picked up the phone and once again tried calling Morinaga, but it didn’t surprise him when he got voice mail. He squeezed the phone in his hand and had to take a deep breath so that he wouldn’t throw it on the floor.

“Well, what if I told you I might know what happened to him?” Masaki teased, as he slowly walked towards the sofa, sat down and crossed his legs. His eyes focused on the other man while he rested his chin on his closed fist.

His words attracted Souichi’s attention. Why would Masaki know anything about Morinaga?! He was an intruder in their house: He shouldn’t even be there!

“What are you talking about?” Souichi heard Masaki’s soft chuckle. He seemed to be having more fun with this than a normal person would have.

“Well, I think you remember when I told you that I would get Tetsuhiro back. I was serious. While you’re in sweet denial about your own sexuality, I’m working on my relationship.” Souichi didn’t like that. He didn’t like that at all. He felt like a heavy ice block had suddenly hit his stomach.

“What have you done?!” He grabbed Masaki’s collar and pulled him closer. Souichi’s angry eyes stared deep inside Masaki’s ironic ones. He was laughing at the situation.

“I did what people in love do, Tatsumi-san,” he whispered, while smiling, his innocent face running against his cruel tone. “I’ve done everything you could think of to get him back. And I think it’s working.” Masaki took advantage of the loosened grip as Souichi processed the implications of that statement, ridding himself of the hands holding his shirt.

Souichi was paralyzed by those words. He kept thinking about what things Masaki could be doing. Kissing, hugging, sex. He didn’t doubt that Masaki was capable of doing whatever he wanted to do.

“Morinaga would never do that!” Souichi didn’t know a lot of things about his kouhai, but he was sure that Morinaga wasn’t the unfaithful type, even though they weren’t dating or anything.

Masaki laughed after hearing that. It amused him how innocent Souichi could be.

“What makes you so sure about that?” he slowly asked, making sure every word had its impact.

Souichi froze. He wasn’t sure of anything anymore, but he just felt Morinaga wouldn’t do anything like that. Souichi didn’t know if this thought was true or not, but he wanted to believe it; he wanted it to be true.

“Well, Tatsumi-san, Tetsuhiro didn’t show up at the lab today, did he?” Morinaga didn’t say anything to him about skipping his after activities, but Masaki figured he wouldn’t go.

“H-How… How do you know that?”

Masaki chuckled when he heard that and finally said, “So I was right? It was just a guess, really, but it seems like I know Tetsuhiro better than you do, don’t I?”

Souichi felt all his hope fade way. If Masaki knew that Morinaga didn’t go to the lab, then he did do something. He was keeping his word, if this kept going, he would indeed steal Morinaga away. Compared to Masaki, who would want a guy like Souichi, who didn’t even know his own sexuality?

“You… You don’t know anything about Morinaga! He said he loves me!” Souichi knew he sounded childish, but he didn’t care. Masaki was so sure of himself, causing Suichi to feel like he was running out of choices. What could possibly shake his disgusting confidence?

“So what? He said that to me too, countless times, when we were dating. Now look at him: He said he loves you. What makes you think he won’t change his mind again?” Masaki’s words were cruel, stabbing at all the defenses Souichi clung to for security.

They remained in silence for some time. Masaki was enjoying watching Souichi’s face change from angry to shocked and, finally, to insecure. He almost had Morinaga back, and now Souichi wasn’t a problem anymore.

“Just to warn you, Tatsumi-san, I wouldn’t say anything about this to Tetsuhiro. You can believe in whoever you want, but if I were you, I wouldn’t lose time arguing with him. It seems you want him back, so you should work on that, not argue with him.”

Even though Masaki’s plan was going well, he was still afraid that something would go wrong. Masaki wanted to break Souichi and Morinaga’s communication completely. It didn’t help that they were sleeping in the same bedroom, in the same bed, but if Morinaga were still the same guy as before, that fact wouldn’t last for too much longer. Maybe it would even stop that night. And then, Souichi’s wouldn’t have time to try and get Morinaga back.

Souichi became red with fury. Why the hell did that idiot say that? He didn’t want to be with Morinaga! He just wanted his stupid kouhai to open his eyes and see what kind of guy Masaki really was! He didn’t want to be with Morinaga. He didn’t want to be with Morinaga.

No matter how many times he repeated that to himself, it never felt true.

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“I’m home,” Morinaga called, out of a habit. He actually didn’t want the two other men to know that he was there.

“Welcome home, Tetsuhiro! It’s already late, I was getting worried.” Masaki suddenly popped up and Morinaga’s heart started racing. He didn’t know if it was because he was nervous, or because Masaki had startled him.

“Ah, yes… I was with a friend…” he muttered, before taking off his shoes and walking past Masaki without even looking at him; he couldn’t. He had stayed late at the bar, talking with Hiroto, because he didn’t want to go home. The situation was still too awkward.

“You weren’t home at dinner time, so we've already eaten something. We couldn’t reach your cell phone, I’m sorry.” Masaki reached out for Morinaga’s back and grabbed his shirt.

“Ah!” Morinaga became nervous by Masaki’s touch, his heart pounding so fast he thought it would jump out of his mouth. “Y-Yeah, the battery is dead…” It was a lie. He had turned it off because he knew Senpai would call him once he realized his kouhai wasn’t going to show up at the lab.

Masaki smiled. Morinaga’s voice made it clear that he was nervous, and he could almost hear the irregular heartbeat. He was very happy with that, because it meant that he had an effect over his ex-lover, and it was getting stronger and stronger.

“Morinaga!” Souichi yelled. He was waiting in his bedroom for his kouhai to come back home because he didn’t want to be in the same room as Masaki. He didn’t hear Morinaga come in, but he did hear the conversation outside his bedroom now, so he went out to see what was going on.

“S-Senpai!” Senpai scared Morinaga and he moved a few steps away from Masaki, just so he could be free of the older man’s grip.

“Why the hell didn’t you show up today?!” Masaki’s words, ‘not to agrue,’ were still resounding in his ears, but he couldn’t do that. He wanted an explanation, and he wanted it now.

Morinaga felt his whole body freeze for a second. He had expected Senpai to ask him that, but now that it was happening he forgot everything he had planned to say. His eyes went from an angry Senpai to Masaki, who seemed strangely happy with the entire situation. His throat felt dry and his brain suddenly stopped working.

Souichi seemed to suddenly remember that he and Morinaga were not alone. He turned his angry gaze to Masaki and then back to Morinaga, grabbing his wrist and pulling him to his bedroom, shutting the door as soon as they got in.

“Where were you?!” Souichi yelled, tightening his closed fists.

“Eh…” Morinaga seemed confused, and that angered Souichi even more. He was asking a simple question!

“I’m asking, where were you?! You didn’t go to the lab today!” Souichi wanted so bad to hit Morinaga, but he had to control himself.

“Ah… I… I met with my friend. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you, Senpai.” Morinaga turned his face and averted his eyes. He was feeling too guilty to face the other man.

“I don’t care! You had to show up! And I couldn’t reach your cell phone!”

Souichi was mad because of a lot of things. He was mad because Masaki was practically living with them. He was mad because Morinaga didn’t go to the lab. More importantly, he was mad because he was feeling uneasy when Morinaga was not around him. Only when they were near each other did Souichi feel like he could relax.

“I’m sorry, Senpai,” Morinaga apologized again. He didn’t know what else to say and he didn’t want to tell the truth. “I’ll go there tomorrow. I promise.”

Souichi felt a little bit calmer with that. If Morinaga promised, then he would do it. But that didn’t solve all of his problems.

“Also, get Masaki out of here! He pisses me off!” Souichi didn’t care to keep his voice low while he said that, he wanted Masaki to hear that part.

Morinaga knew that Senpai didn’t like Masaki, but he never expected this whole situation to happen. Senpai’s anger, Masaki’s kisses and his own confused feelings were all mixing up and it was driving him crazy.

“He will leave soon, Senpai, I promise.” Morinaga didn’t know if that was true, but that didn’t matter at that moment, the important thing was to calm down Senpai. “Please, just bear with it a little longer.”

Souichi closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He had to calm down, being angry wouldn’t solve anything and he didn’t want to argue with Morinaga. He was tired and, even though he was the one who started the conversation, he didn’t want to talk about it any longer.

“Enough! We will talk about this later. Just come sleep already. I don’t want you sneaking into bed in the middle of the night,” Souichi muttered, turning his back to Morinaga and starting to walk toward the bed.

“Actually, Senpai…” Morinaga started and Senpai stopped immediately. It was never a good thing when Morinaga started a sentence like that. “I’m going to sleep on the couch while Masaki-san is here.” Morinaga still wasn’t looking at Senpai. He didn’t want to see the older man’s reaction.

Souichi eyes widened and he turned to look at Morinaga. He was still digesting those words and, as time passed, they felt more real. Souichi started panicking. Was Masaki telling the truth? Did he do something with Morinaga? What was all that about?!

“What?!” He prayed he’d misheard him.

“It’s just uncomfortable for you. The bed is really small for the two of us. Anyway, Masaki-san should be gone soon, so I’ll be alright.” Morinaga tried to smile and sound cheerful, but he didn’t sound very convincing.

Souichi wasn’t uncomfortable at all, and no matter how many times he tried denying the fact, it was true that he was sleeping better with Morinaga hugging him every night. He didn’t want that to end.

“What the fuck are you talking about?!” He tried asking again, the explanation Morinaga had given him wasn’t enough.

“It’s nothing, Senpai! I just need some time to think, everyone needs that. Tomorrow everything will go back to normal. I’ll go to the lab. So… I’ll see you tomorrow, Senpai. Good night.” Morinaga got out of the bedroom as soon as he said that. He didn’t want Senpai to ask any other questions, it was already hard enough to make up a plausible excuse and he felt like he couldn’t lie any further.

He started going to his bedroom to get a blanket when he almost ran into Masaki. The two men faced each other for a moment, and then Morinaga blushed and turned away.

“I heard everything, Tetsuhiro. I’m sorry, I couldn’t avoid it.” Masaki moved so that he was facing Morinaga again. “Don’t you think the couch is really uncomfortable? Why not sleep in your bed? I wouldn’t mind sharing it with you.”

Morinaga froze. He was shocked by those words, but mostly he was afraid that Senpai had heard them. He quickly looked behind before grabbing Masaki’s arm, pulling him toward the sofa.

“I’m sorry, Masaki-san. I can’t… I just… I need to think. I’m sorry.” He couldn’t understand why he was apologizing so much, but he felt he should.

Masaki heard that and almost laughed. It always amused him how cute Morinaga could be, and he was still the same even though many years had passed. He came a few steps closer, and gave a light kiss to his ex-lover’s neck.

“You don’t need to apologized that much, Tetsuhiro. I’m glad that you are at least thinking about what happened. I won’t insist, but in case you change your mind, I’ll be waiting.” He got closer again and, this time, he gave a light kiss to his lips. “Good night.”

Masaki left the room, not seeing how madly Morinaga was blushing.

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As you can see, I was able to finish Chapter 9 before my trip. I'm traveling tonight and I'll really try to post a chapter when I'm there, but I don't know if I can make it i.i
Now, talking about this chapter, I guess you guys can see the way this is going. Go Masakiiii! *runs* Ok, kidding, Senpai won't let his kouhai be stolen away xD
I'm planning something nice for next chapter, but I don't know if you'll like it. But it's part of the story, so don't kill me i.i
Well, I guess this is it.
Thanks for reading, see you next chapter!

Realize it! - Chapter 8

2009-01-26T02:17:26Z

Finally, chapter 8!

Enjoy.

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Beta: mightymaeve
Warnings: Hn… Well… Sexual tension? XD

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Before I start with this chapter, I want to warn everyone that there’s an important note by the end of this chapter. I want everyone to please read it. Thanks.

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Souichi couldn’t focus at all. He could hear the teacher saying something. He could also read the words on the board. But he couldn’t make sense out of them. It all seemed confused, and that irritated him. His studies were the only thing that made sense to him, but now, not even this was logical.

“It’s all Morinaga’s fault!”

Blaming Morinaga always made Souichi calmer. Although he knew Morinaga wasn’t totally at fault, he still wasn’t a victim either.

“If only he hadn’t taken advantage of me that night when I drank that weird thing!”

Yes, it all started after he had found that drug-infused bottle of alcohol. That day, Souichi swore he would kill the person who gave it to Morinaga. It was Morinaga’s and that person’s fault.

He squeezed the pen in his hand to the point of almost breaking it. The more he thought whose fault it was, the more mad he became. It was all messed up. He wished he had never met Morinaga in the first place; that way, at least what the teacher was saying would make sense to him.

The actual situation that pissed him off the most was last night, when Morinaga didn’t kiss him. After that, Souichi waited for Morinaga to get out of the bathroom. He wanted to talk, to ask what the hell was going on, and he wasn’t giving up until Morinaga told him the truth. It was beginning to bother him, the fact that he didn’t know much about Morinaga when Morinaga knew almost everything about him. He wanted his kouhai to tell him something, anything, and he was going to listen.

He just wanted to be closer to Morinaga.

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Souichi heard a door open, then close. He startled, turning apprehensively toward the bathroom. He could still hear the water running. Was he so anxious to speak with Morinaga that he was hearing things?

“I’m home, Tatsumi-san.”

Souichi twisted his face. He wished he was hearing things.

“What are you doing here?” he growled. How much longer would this fucking vacation last?

“Well, I’m staying here during my vacation, in case you’ve forgotten,” Masaki said. He heard the water running and looked at the bathroom door. “I wonder if he wants me to wash his back,” he casually whispered, making sure that Souichi heard.

“Shut up!” he yelled, forgetting for a moment that Morinaga was in the house. Both of them looked at the bathroom. The water was still running.

“If you’re too loud, he will hear you, Tatsumi-san.”

Souichi stormed past Masaki, throwing himself onto the sofa. Maskai followed, slowly and deliberately sitting next to Souichi. He smiled at the other man as he leaned back, taking a deep breath, then closing his eyes.

“When are you going to leave?!” Souichi was strangely relieved that Masaki was next to him. That way, he didn’t have to yell as loud to make an impact on the other man. But the short distance between them still did not exactly please him.

“I already told you,' he said in a calm voice, as if talking to a slow child, “I’m on vacation. I’ll leave when it’s over,” he finished, before opening his eyes and looking directly at Souichi. “The difference is, it ends when I want it to.”

“What?!” screeched an infuriated Souichi. What the hell was that about?

Souichi couldn’t take the conversation further because Morinaga had finished his shower and was standing in the hallway. He looked at the two older men with a weird face, before retreating into Senpai’s bedroom.

“We can talk more later, Tatsumi-san. You don’t want Tetsuhiro to think that you’re arguing with me, right?”

Souichi bit his lip and made an angry face. I’m going to kill this fucking bastard. He would have said it out loud if Morinaga were still in the shower. Damn.

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Morinaga was tired. As he walked, he kept crashing into people and even the walls of the long corridor.

He couldn’t sleep at all.

It was already awkward enough to face Senpai when he kissed Masaki earlier the day before, but it was worse when they had to sleep together on the small, single bed.

Morinaga was more self-conscious then he had been in his whole life. He startled every time his back touched Senpai’s. He had pretended to be sleeping when the older man had entered the bedroom, but quickly became suspicious that Sempai must have known he was awake, after he joined him in the bed, because of his unusual behavior of trying to maintain a distance between them.

Now he was confused and he was mad because he didn’t know why he was confused. The more time that passed, the more he became unsure about his feelings towards Senpai. Did he still love the man? He was no longer positive of his answer.

He was usually so calm around Senpai. He knew how to deal with the Sempai's moods, but now he only felt agitated. All he could think about was his desire to be somewhere, anywhere else!

And that kiss they had shared in the bathroom! Sure, it felt good. He always liked to kiss Senpai, but that kiss was different. It was like their personalities were switched. Senpai wanted to kiss him, but he didn’t want to kiss Senpai. He suddenly felt a wave of sadness, a disorienting undertow of guilt pulling him down with it. Maybe he needed time alone to work things out, to breathe.

He thought about his old apartment. The renovations were already finished, so he could go back there. Senpai could keep on living in their present apartment and Masaki’s vacation should end anytime soon. Maybe some time alone would help him figure out what he wanted.

He stopped and sighed, looking at the almost empty corridor. He was ditching class, so there were only a few people milling about, but that was still too many. He wanted to be completely alone. Soon enough, it would be time to go to the lab and Senpai would be there. And at home, there was Masaki. Now was the only time Morinaga could be alone.

Morinaga looked around. He wanted to sit down for a while. Perhaps he could find one of the few classrooms that were unused, he thought, knowing he'd have privacy there. Distracted with thinking about which classroom would be better, he didn’t notice someone approaching.

“Oh, sorry!” he apologized, after bumping into the other person. He kept his head down, not paying attention to who it was, and kept walking.

“You should be more careful, Tetsuhiro.”

Morinaga head snapped up, the rest of his body froze. He knew that voice. But he prayed he was wrong.

“Masaki-san?! What are you doing here?” Morinaga was too stunned to ask anything else.

“I’m sorry. Is this a bad time? Do you want me to go back and meet you later?” Masaki looked surprised with Morinaga’s reaction. He knew it really wasn’t a good idea to pop up at Morinaga's university, but he really did want to see his ex-lover.

“No, it’s not that! It’s just . . . I was a little surprised,” Morinaga said with a faint smile. “Do you need anything? You could have called me.”

“No, I just wanted to see you,” Masaki said, gently brushing Morinaga’s bangs out of his face.

A shocking tingle shot from his head straight down his spine at Masaki's small gesture. He wanted to step back, but couldn’t. It felt good being gently touched by someone. And the raw want in Masaki's answer seemed to have stolen his breath.

“Where’s Tatsumi-san?” Masaki looked from side to side, making sure that the other man wasn’t around.

“He’s in class. I should be in mine, too . . .” Morinaga trailed off.

“Ditching class? That’s not really like you, Tetsuhiro. Did something happen?” Masaki looked a little bit worried, but he was glad that he could have Morinaga all to himself.

“No, not really . . .” He didn’t want to tell Masaki the reason why he was not attending class. “I just needed to think . . .”

“Oh. Should I go home and leave you alone?”

“No, there’s no need. You already came all the way here.” Morinaga noticed that the few people passing by were starting to look at them. He didn’t want anyone to think anything was wrong, so he needed to get them both out of the public view. Besides, he didn’t want it to get back to Senpai that he had a visitor. “Come here, Masaki-san.”

Morinaga took Masaki to the closest empty classroom, one that was always abandoned, so he was sure no one would go there.

“We should be able to talk better here,” Morinaga smiled while he spoke. Even though he really didn’t want to talk to Masaki, he thought he would be able to avoid any unwanted topics.

Masaki smiled back. He wanted to be alone with Morinaga, but he never thought Morinaga would take the initiative.

“Is this classroom always empty?” he casually asked. Even though he didn’t care about what people thought of him, he didn’t want Morinaga to be the target of gossips.

“Yes, we should be able to talk here for a while before I have to go to the lab.” Morinaga was surprised that he was able to talk with Masaki in such a normal way after what had happened. He was happy it wasn't awkward: It made that much easier to avoid those unwanted topic.

“Oh, I see.” Masaki was distracted for a moment, looking around the classroom, but then he turned back to Morinaga with a grin.

Masaki took a step closer to Morinaga, who took a step back. Masaki remained unconcerned; they were all alone and there wasn’t really any place Morinaga could escape to. He took another step towards his ex-lover, his face clearly showing that he didn’t want to talk. Morinaga took another step back, his legs hitting against the teacher’s table and stopping him.

“Remember when we were young and I used to convince you to ditch class so that we could meet?” Masaki whispered, getting closer to Morinaga and bringing his face near. “I loved to see your flushed face when you came running toward me. You were really cute back then.”

Morinaga’s mind was a blur. Having Masaki so close to him had an intoxicating effect, like a drug that stopped him from thinking. Unconsciously, he looked at Masaki’s lips. He could perfectly remember the taste and softness. They were different from Senpai’s.

Why was this happening? He was supposed to reject Masaki right away, push him back and say that they couldn’t do this, but he didn’t feel like doing that at all. He had thought that loving Senpai for so many years made him invulnerable to other men. It has been more than two years since he last slept with anyone other than Senpai. He didn’t desire other men.

But now, undeniably, he desired Masaki. He remembered how Masaki body was when they were dating, but that was many years ago. How was it now? He caught himself thinking about how much Masaki’s body had changed. It was surely far prettier; the man himself had become so much more gorgeous than the boy before. Morinaga felt the effect these images were having on his body and his face flushed scarlet. What if Masaki noticed? Moreover, it was wrong to think about these things!

Masaki suddenly moved. While Morinaga was caught up with his own worries, he joined their faces together, delicately pressing his lips against Morinaga’s. He didn’t wait to invade his ex-lover’s mouth, hurrying with this brief opening in Morinaga's normal confidence. He closed his eyes and focused on the kiss, pulling at the other's tongue, forcing Morinaga to kiss him back.

Masaki felt the inside of Morinaga’s mouth, hotter and more humid than usual. He moved his body closer and discovered the reason. He almost laughed, realizing that Morinaga was beginning to get hard. What was he thinking? Did Morinaga unconsciously want to sleep with him?

Morinaga's eyes widened when their bodies touched. Masaki surely would have noticed that he was excited, but he didn’t seem to care. With a sinking feeling, the truth of what he had allowed to happen hit him: He knew Masaki was going to kiss him when he saw him getting closer and closing his eyes. Why didn’t he turn his face? He
allowed Masaki to kiss him. His brain was telling him to push Masaki, to yell that it was wrong, but his body wasn’t obeying him. Against his better judgment, he closed his eyes and started to return the kiss. Masaki knew exactly how to make Morinaga kiss him back, and he didn’t even have to try very hard.

Masaki wrapped his arms around Morinaga’s neck, turning his face so that their mouths would fit together better. He moaned, deepening the kiss, making it clear that just kissing wasn’t enough for him any longer. He also started thinking about how Morinaga’s body would be after so many years. He could feel that it was better than before, now that Morinaga was a man and no longer a little kid. As he allowed his mind to explore thoughts of Morinaga’s body, he became more and more turned on.

Suddenly, Morinaga broke the kiss. It was getting too dangerous. He was starting to lose the last bit of control that he had. And now, the guilt was starting to consume him.

“I . . .” Morinaga breathlessly started. He didn’t know what to say. Masaki was panting and his hot breath hitting against Morinaga’s neck wasn’t helping him to calm down. “I’m sorry, Masaki-san. I . . . I can’t do this.”

“You don’t like it?” Masaki asked, looking a little bit hurt as he lowering his head and then his arms as he placed his hands on Morinaga’s waist.

“No! It’s not that!” Morinaga quickly denied, without thinking why he was so desperate to make Masaki understand that wasn't the problem.

“Is it Tatsumi-san?”

Morinaga froze. How did Masaki know about them? Did he see them? Did he hear them? The mere possibility of Masaki knowing about both of them made Morinaga panic. He didn’t want Masaki to know about them. He didn’t care if people knew, as long as that didn’t include Masaki. But why?

“How . . . How do you know?” Even if Morinaga denied it, Masaki was too clever to fall for that.

“I just guessed. I see the way you look at him, Tetsuhiro. It’s the same way you used to look at me when we were dating. I’m jealous of Tatsumi-san, do you know that?”

Morinaga couldn’t find a proper answer to that. He never thought that Masaki could feel jealousy over him. He was sure that, if it were when they were dating, he would have felt so happy that he could have died.

“I know it’s a little bit late to ask, but I was really hoping that I was wrong,” Masaki sighed sadly. “Are you two dating?”

“Dating . . .” Morinaga thought about the best answer. He didn’t want to lie, but he also didn’t want Masaki to know more than necessary. “I wouldn’t say that . . .” Thoughts of Senpai yelling things like he was not gay and he wasn’t Morinaga’s lover rushed through Morinaga. “No, we’re not dating,” he finally said, looking defeated.

“Oh, that’s good.” Masaki instantly perked up. Though he was satisfied with that, he just needed to know one more thing. “Does he love you?”

He watched carefully while his ex-lover’s expression slowly changed from sad to choked and then sad again. He was sure he had hit the nail on the head. He saw Morinaga biting his lips and struggling a bit, maybe trying to find the best answer.

“That. . . I don’t know."

Sometimes he thought Senpai did love him, but other times it looked like he was just being kind. Everything else aside, Senpai was a very kind man.

“I think you deserve more than that. I know I’m in no position to talk about this, but things have changed. I really regret everything I did to you, Tetsuhiro. I want to make it up to you.”

Masaki smiled almost shyly, leaning forward again to place a light kiss on Morinaga’s lips and lingering slightly at the sweet taste. He looked in Morinaga’s eyes and, seeing his puzzled expression, he gave a faint laugh.

“I love you, Tetsuhiro.”

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He was in a hurry.

It was not like he was on official vacation. He had managed to get a medical leave due to stress, but he couldn’t take much longer than a week or two.

Masaki realized that he wanted to be with Morinaga no matter what when he met Kunihiro by accident. He thought he had been able to forget about everything, but he was wrong. Seeing Kunihiro only made it clear to him that he would never be able to forget Morinaga. So he would get him back no matter what he had to do.

He had been happy to find that Morinaga wasn't mad at him, as he had feared, and he had expected Morinaga to be with somebody else after this many years, but that somebody else was proving to be unexpectedly stubborn.

But he wasn’t too worried. Even with all the troubles, it looked like things were going fine. Morinaga wasn’t sure about Tatsumi’s feelings toward him, and that thought alone filled Masaki with hope. Plus, it looked like the younger man hadn’t forgotten about Masaki. If he made the right choices, played on that seed of doubt and hurt between Morinaga and Tatsumi-san, maybe, just maybe, in a mere week he could get Morinaga to move back with him to Fukuoka.

Masaki didn’t really plan on using that record tape, it was too weird, even if he cut out the parts he didn’t want Morinaga to hear. He had only wanted to shake up that cocky Tatsumi-san. If everything continued along this path, he'd just have to open Morinaga’s eyes to reality. He knew Morinaga would never be happy with a guy that actively continued to deny the fact that he was gay.

Masaki easily sensed Morinaga's confusion and was delighted to discover that he still knew so much about Morinaga. He knew what to do and what not to do so that Morinaga would think more and more about him. Maybe Morinaga even still loved him. He wasn’t sure about that, but if his ex-lover didn’t love him anymore, he would do anything to change that. Anything.

The one thing he was sure about was that he would not lose Morinaga again.

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Note: So, let’s get to the point. I have good news and bad news. I’ll tell the good news first.
The good news is... I’m going to Canada by the end of February, yeeeey! \o\
The bad news is... I don’t know if I’ll be able to post the following chapters.
I’ll be there for three months, and although I’m taking my laptop with me I don’t know if I’ll be able to write anything there. I need to be alone to write it, when I'm at home is different, I can write here anytime I want, but there I really need to be alone because I don’t want anyone peeking and reading the wrong parts (I’m sure everyone knows what the ‘wrong parts’ are xD)
But I’ll really do my best to write and post at least one chapter while I’m there! I know it’s a bit earlier to tell you this, but I don’t know if a new chapter will be posted before I go there.
End of the note, thanks for reading it.

Now, let’s talk about the chapter.
As you all must have read, I have a beta now, yeeeey! She is awesome, so I think you all won’t have to bear with my English mistakes anymore. There’s also a little bit of her writing style here and there, so this chapter is a little bit different from the others.
I hope you are not willing to kill me, I know Masaki is pushing Morinaga away from Senpai, but you all must understand that it’s true love. Something that Senpai has but doesn’t want to admit!
Ok, and now I think I just spoke too much. I hope you all liked this chapter, tell me what you think, I love your comments!
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Realize it! - Chapter 7

2009-01-01T22:17:21Z

Chapter 7 is here! Hope you guys still remember this fic xD

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Warnings: Hn… It’s not exactly 18+, but it’s definitely not for kids.

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When Shouichi got home later that day, neither Masaki nor Morinaga were there. He frowned when he realized that and started looking for something, which he found. He picked up the paper that was on the table and read the note.

“Senpai, I went out. Masaki had to do some work so he went to meet a colleague. Dinner is in the fridge.”

Shouichi stared at the note for a long time. It was, indeed, Morinaga’s handwriting, so why was it so impersonal? Nothing about when he was coming back or where he went. That was really suspicious.

He looked around the apartment, trying to find anything different, but everything was just like when he left. So what the hell could possibly had happened? Did Masaki do something? Did Morinaga do something?

“That’s what I’m telling you, Hiroto-kun. I don’t know what to do.” Morinaga muttered as he took a long sip from his drink. Hiroto gave a small smile.

“Angel-kun, I know that you’re confused, but why don’t you try to think rationally about it?” Hiroto asked while he was drying up a cup.

“What do you mean?” Morinaga looked puzzled. He was already on his third drink and was starting not to think straight.

“Try to take a look of your situation from the outside. I mean, how long have you been trying to get your senpai? 5 years? Almost 6?”

“Almost 6…”

“Yeah. And never once had he shown you any sign that he was falling for you. Are you sure that he will fall for you after so many years?”

“He did show some signs!” Morinaga protested, hitting his cup on the balcony, indication Hiroto to fill it up again.

“It was only sex, Angel-kun.” Hiroto sighed as he filled up Morinaga’s cup. “Anyone would be like that when feeling pleasure or in great need for sex. I heard how good you are in bed.”

“Shut up.” Morinaga said as he heard that. “I don’t wanna remember it.”

“I know, sorry.” Hiroto apologized with a sweet voice. “What I’m trying to say is, you should just give up. I’m worried about you, Angel-kun. Your senpai never treats you the way you deserve. You yourself told me that he was only having sex with you because it was you, I mean, like he was trying to pay you for all the things you did for him.”

Morinaga looked at Hiroto for a few seconds before looking at his drink. He had to admit that his friend was right. Senpai was only being gentle, but he didn’t love Morinaga. He was not gay and, after so many years trying, Morinaga had the feeling that he would never be. The sex was just a temporary lapse.

“But that doesn’t solve Masaki-san’s issue.” Morinaga said as he sighed. He didn’t know what to do.

“I don’t like Masaki.” Hiroto said. He knew the story between Masaki and Morinaga, and he didn’t like Masaki. Actually, he hated the guy. “But you said he apologized. And he is willing to try again, right?”

“Yes.” Morinaga muttered, obviously feeling guilty for what he did with Masaki earlier that day.

“You should choose better the people you like, Angel-kun.” With that, Morinaga looked at Hiroto like saying ‘I don’t need to hear this’. “Ok, ok. I’m trying to say this: I don’t think neither Masaki nor your senpai are good enough for you. But, between them, I’d rather choose Masaki. You know him very well, and he likes you. You could be happier with him. And, in the mean time, you could fall for someone better.”

“I don’t want to fall for anyone else. I like Senpai.” Morinaga really liked Senpai. He loved him so much. So why wasn’t that enough?

“I know. Angel-kun, I only want what’s best for you. But if you liked your senpai that much, you would have stopped Masaki. Think about it.”

Morinaga froze with that. Hiroto was right. He should have stopped Masaki. And he couldn’t even say to Masaki that he loved Senpai! Just when he though everything was fine, Masaki showed up and ruined everything. But still, Morinaga couldn’t blame him.

“I’ll… Think about it. Thanks, Hiroto-kun.” Morinaga felt that the conversation was helping him, but he was too tired and too not sober to want to talk more about that, so he just ended it.

Morinaga pushed his tongue inside Masaki’s mouth, caressing its inside and feeling it getting warmer and warmer. Masaki moved his body closer to Morinaga’s, their legs and chests touching.

Masaki moaned as he enlaced Morinaga’s neck with his arms, pulling their bodies even closer. Morinaga hesitated for a while, stopping to move his tongue, but Masaki encouraged it, biting the wet lips of his ex-lover.

He leaned his body, pulling the younger man and making him stay on top. Morinaga hesitated again, trying to break the kiss, but Masaki was pulling his face against his own. Morinaga moved his leg, trying to gain more balance so that he could get away from the kiss, but his leg accidentally pressed against Masaki’s member.

“Hnnn.” Masaki moaned again, and Morinaga was starting to get panicked. He felt Masaki starting to get hard, and he felt himself also getting turned on. Maybe it was something from the old times or because he wanted to have sex with Masaki. He didn’t know the reason and he didn’t want to.

“Tetsuhiro…” Masaki whispered in Morinaga’s ear, his erotic voice resounding through Morinaga’s brain, as he felt himself getting harder and harder, even though they were just kissing.

Masaki moved his mouth to Morinaga’s neck, as he slid his hand through Morinaga’s body, getting to his waist and, finally, to his penis, lightly squeezing it. He smiled as he notice the unconscious reaction.

“Ma-Masaki-san!” Morinaga moved away from Masaki and held his wrist, moving away his hand. “What are you doing?”

“What do you think?” Masaki asked with an evil voice. He noticed Morinaga blushing and he moved his own member against the younger man’s legs, letting out a small moan. Morinaga blushed more.

He opened and closed his mouth several times. He wanted to tell Masaki that that wasn’t right, that he couldn’t do that, but no sound came out. He couldn’t manage to speak. Masaki smiled with that and tried to kiss Morinaga again, when he heard a sound coming out of his pant’s pocket.

“Oh… Sorry, my cell phone.” Masaki picked it and answered.

Morinaga stayed still for a moment as he watched Masaki talking on the phone. He was confused and shocked. Masaki had just kissed him! He blushed and moved away, sitting on the sofa. Masaki stayed on the phone a little longer before hanging up.

“I’m sorry, Tetsuhiro. It was an acquaintance from work. I have to meet a client that’s here in town. I’m sorry.” He apologized as he got up and tried to stretch his shirt. “I don’t know how long it will take, I’ll try to get back by dinner time.” He smiled at Morinaga, who was still quiet and shocked, and leaned to give him a kiss. “We’ll do something about this latter.” He whispered and lightly touched Morinaga’s half-erection before he left the apartment.

It was already pretty late when Morinaga got out of the bar. He knew that Senpai was probably home by that time, and Masaki-san was probably with him. He didn’t want to face both of them right at that moment, but he preferred to see them at the same time than being alone with one of them. He sighed as he walked through the empty street, thinking about what he had done that day.

He had to admit that Masaki was a great kisser and not kissing him back was something hard to do. But he had Senpai, and he loved Senpai. Or so he thought. Why wasn’t he so sure about that anymore? It’s not like something huge happened that day – it was just a kiss. Yet, it had been powerful enough to confuse him. He wasn’t even sure of his feelings anymore, and that made him even more confused.

Loving Senpai for more than 5 years, Morinaga though that nothing could change that – not even Masaki. He was pretty sure that soon enough Senpai would fall for him, the man was responding even more to their love making and didn’t resist that much anymore. If Morinaga kept on doing that, he would have Senpai’s heart.

But now the image of both of them together as a couple wasn’t that appealing anymore. It all started to change with the presence of Masaki, and Morinaga started to think that he still hasn’t forgot everything about Masaki and that, maybe, his love for Senpai was just a way to forget his old lover, since both of them were so different. But it couldn’t be that! Morinaga loved Senpai so much, he was sure it hadn’t anything to do with Masaki.

Or so was what he was trying to convince himself.

“I’m home.” Morinaga said as he opened the door, after staying a few minutes frozen in front of it, trying to decipher whether Masaki and Senpai were there and if he should really go home that day.

He looked around and didn’t see anybody, but he was sure that someone was there because the door was unlocked and the lights were on. He looked at the floor and saw only one pair of shoes, and he was sure that that were Senpai’s shoes.

Morinaga froze and took one step back, his back hitting the door. He swallowed hard and tried to see if it was too late to go out of the house and pretend he didn’t enter.

“Where have you been?” The cold voice of Senpai reached his ears. It was too late.

Morinaga lifted his eyes and met Senpai’s cold gaze. He couldn’t bear to look in the eyes of the man he betrayed, so he looked away. Senpai narrowed his eyes and took one step closer to his kouhai.

“Where have you been?” He asked again.

Morinaga bit his lips and hesitated to answer. It was not like he did something wrong, he had gone to the bar to see Hiroto before, but he was afraid that his voice would betray him and Senpai would sense that he did something wrong.

“I went to see my friend that works at a bar.” He answered quickly, trying not to give so many details so that he would speak less.

Shouichi carefully listened to that, but something about Morinaga’s voice didn’t sound right and so he was not convinced. He got closer to his kouhai and leaned his head, the heat of their bodies mixing up, almost feeling like they were touching. Morinaga shut his eyes as Shouichi drove his face closer to the younger man’s neck and took a deep breath.

The scent of alcohol was there, so Shouichi didn’t have any other option but to believe Morinaga. He drove his face away but didn’t move, watching Morinaga’s face while he slowly opened his eyes and stared at him.

They remained silent for a moment, their heavy breaths hitting against each other skin. Shouichi was almost sure that Morinaga was going to kiss him, and he wasn’t planning on resisting this time.

But…

“Ah!” Morinaga startled as if only then did he realize what was going on. He felt his chest burn as he looked away. “I… I’m going to take a shower.” He quickly said and got away from Shouichi, running towards the bathroom.

The older man followed him with his eyes before deciding that he should go after him.

“What happened?” He asked, stopping the bathroom door from closing by putting his foot in front of it.

Morinaga looked at him with guilty eyes before trying to close the door one more.

“Nothing, Senpai. I think I just drank too much.” He averted their gazes as he spoke. He couldn’t bear to look Senpai in the eye.

“You’re lying!” Shouichi wasn’t too sure about what he said, but he thought he knew his kouhai long enough to tell something like that.

“No, I’m not!” The way Morinaga denied that made Senpai even sure that he was lying.

“Then why didn’t you kiss me back there?!” Senpai asked in a desperate tone. He was angry, he gave Morinaga permission to kiss him, he wanted to be kissed. Then why the hell did Morinaga not kiss him?!

The younger man looked shocked for a moment. He wasn’t expecting Senpai to ask that, and he didn’t have an answer. Actually, he did have one. But he didn’t want to tell.

“That’s… Because…” Morinaga hesitated a little bit. He knew Shouichi wouldn’t go away unless he gave him an answer, so he was thinking about one. “I… Because I drank too much. I drank too much and I don’t want you to taste it, so that’s why…” He said the first, logical thing that ran through his mind. Though that wasn’t a serious thing, he could still use it as an excuse.

“What kind of fucking answer is that?! You drank the first time you had sex with me and you didn’t seem to care!” That answer wasn’t a good one for Senpai. They drank and kissed after that many times before. Why would it be different now?

They remained silent for a bit. Senpai was starting to paint from being so angry, and Morinaga was almost giving up and telling him what he did. He felt guilty about everything, but what was bothering his wasn’t that he kissed Masaki, what bothered him was that he wasn’t worried about that. He wasn’t as guilty as he thought he would be.

“Senpai, I…” He started. He wanted to tell, but at the same time, he didn’t want. “I…” He thought for a moment. Why would he hurt Senpai? Would that even hurt him? The one who would be hurt would be Morinaga, because Senpai did not love him and he would sure be happy that Morinaga finally found some one else to almost rape.

“You what?” Senpai asked, clearly impatient. In the mean time, Morinaga forgot about the door and Senpai managed to open it and get in the bathroom.

“I…” Morinaga was stuttering and he wasn’t enjoying that. “You… Senpai, why do you want me to kiss you?” That was another thing that was on Morinaga’s mind, so he decided to ask that instead of telling the truth.

Shouichi blushed madly when he heard that. It wasn’t like he wanted to be kissed – or was it? – It was just that Morinaga always did that when he had a chance and when he didn’t kiss Shouichi, the older man got worried. He had to admit that he cared about that fucking pervert.

“Because you always do when you have a chance! Fuck, it’s not that I want that!” Senpai firmly yelled. He was mad because he was confused and Morinaga wasn’t kissing him to make him forget about everything.

“I see…” Morinaga muttered with a faint smile as he looked away. He knew Senpai would never want to be kissed by him. “I’m going to take a shower now, Senpai, so could you please lea-…”

Shouichi knew he would be asked to leave, and for some unknown reason to him, he wanted to stay there. He grabbed Morinaga by his collar and stopped him from finishing the sentence.

“Fuck! Kiss me already!” He yelled, and brought Morinaga closer to him, joining their lips with strength.

Morinaga’s eyes widened, not believing that Senpai kissed him with such need. He felt Senpai’s tong forcing it’s way through his lips and he opened his mouth, allowing Senpai to deepen the kiss. He closed his eyes as he felt Senpai’s warm and wet tongue touching his, provoking it, demanding him to kiss him back. And Morinaga answered Senpai’s wish, kissing him back, but not with the intimacy he used to have. He only kissed, not once holding Senpai with the strong and firm arms that the older man liked so much.

Shouichi, on the other hand, thought that the kiss was really weird. Even though Morinaga was kissing him back, it was like he was afraid of something. The kiss was so different from before that if Shouichi hadn’t seen Morinaga, he would swear that he was kissing some total different person. Even the taste was not the same. There was, of course, Morinaga usually sweet taste, together with alcohol and… Something else… Shouichi could taste something that reminded him of mint. It wasn’t altogether bad, and the combination made him start being aroused, but the mint taste was instigating him. Where did that come from?

Morinaga felt Senpai getting aroused and also he, himself, was starting to respond to Senpai’s heat. That was getting dangerous. Morinaga didn’t want to have sex with Senpai, not after betraying him with Masaki.

Masaki…!

Morinaga gasped and pushed Senpai away. He looked flushed and so did Senpai, with his cheeks red and quick breath.

“I’m sorry, Senpai.” Morinaga said before Senpai could say something first. He wasn’t sure about what he was apologizing for, if it was for breaking the kiss or betraying him.

“What?!” Shouichi couldn’t believe that. What the hell was wrong with his kouhai?!

“I’ll take a shower now, Senpai… Could you please leave?” Morinaga asked with a kind tone. He really wanted to be alone, to think about what happened, to think about his conversation with Hiroto and, also, he wanted to cool his head down.

Shouichi didn’t want to leave. But, together with Morinaga’s kind tone, the look of desperation in his eyes made him leave.

“What’s wrong with me? I’m going crazy…” Morinaga thought as he turned the shower on.

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So, sorry for the long wait! I have a good explanation!
My mom asked me to help her out with her store, and that consumed all my energy xD
I mean, why people always leave things to the last minute? Why do they want to buy Christmas gifts right on Christmas week?! (Ok, ignore it, sometimes I do it, too xD) But really, at this time of the year, people can get really scary!
But I’m here! Tired, but alive! \o\
I tried to upload it by Christmas, but my computed kind of crashed, and I didn't have a copy on my notebook so I had to wait until my dad fixed it. It looks like everything went against me this past two weeks, but I'm alright now!
Now back to the fic, I had a really difficult time writing it. I tried not to rush things because sometimes I tend to do it. Don’t know if I was able to control myself, though xD
And I have this feeling that everyone here (Our favorite couple plus Masaki and Hiroto) is a little bit OOC. I tried my best to make they sound as natural as possible, but it seems that it only gets harder and harder as the fic passes by. Oh well, I’ll try to fix it.
I hope you guys liked it! Tell me what you think!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! (Sorry I’m late)

Fake - One shot

2008-12-15T23:51:11Z

New Koi Suru Boukun fanfic! \o\
Please, don’t murder me i.i

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Title: Fake
Characters: Morinaga, Masaki.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Koi Suru Boukun. It’s Takanaga-sensei’s.
Summary: A cute little one-shot about Morinaga and Masaki’s relationship, back when they were lovers.

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Morinaga smiled as he got closer to his lover and caressed his cheek. Masaki smiled with that gesture, his eyes closed as he let out a deep sight. The smell of their lovemaking was still in the air, resounding together with their long gone moans.

It was still afternoon, and they could hear children playing outside along with bird sounds. The room was orange-colored with the light that went in through the window, as they remained hidden from the rest of the world, running away from the scolding and prejudice.

“I hope they never come home…” Morinaga whispered in Masaki ears with a sleepy voice. His parents and his brother would never understand the magic and purity that existed within their relationship, so they hided themselves from the blaming eyes of Morinaga’s relatives.

“We will have other opportunities.” Masaki said in return, still not opening his eyes. His parents also wouldn’t approve their relationship, but he didn’t care.

Morinaga sighed and buried his face on Masaki’s neck, smelling his scent, the sweaty and testosterone. The scent he loved so much.

“I want more opportunities than this.” Morinaga admitted, holding Masaki tighter, pulling him closer. Their chest touched and their legs enlaced each other even more.

Morinaga wanted more than that. It was like he never had enough of Masaki. He always wanted more, he wanted to touch him more, kiss him, feel him…

Masaki smiled with that, wrapping his arms around his lover’s neck and caressing his hair. He stopped himself from sighing, and bit his lips. But Morinaga was too distracted to notice that.

“I want to be with you forever, Masaki-san.” Morinaga timidly said in a whisper. When Masaki didn’t answer, he gathered enough courage to look at him.

Morinaga searched for Masaki’s eyes, but even though he looked at them, he didn’t see anything. It was like Masaki was lost into somewhere else, hidden inside his consciousness. Morinaga got worried and squeezed him tighter. Masaki blinked once and their eyes met.

“Ah…” He looked confused for a moment, but then smiled, lowering his head and planting a light kiss on his lover’s forehead. “You just have to be more patient. Soon enough I will graduate and I’ll try to live on my own.”

The younger man smiled and his eyes got back to his usual gleam, running away from the concern. He raised his head and kissed Masaki, tasting the sweetness he loved so much. Masaki opened his mouth as he closed his eyes, allowing Morinaga to make a deeper kiss.

Their tongues entwined and danced together. Morinaga was passionate, showing how much he cared for the other man, but Masaki was gentle. Only gentle, like he was feeling forced to repay Morinaga for some terrible thing he did.

They broke the kiss too early and Morinaga buried his face again on Masaki’s neck. The older man sighed as he looked around the room.

“It’s getting late. I need to go back.” He said in a kind tone, but Morinaga held him even tighter.

“Don’t go.” He whispered. He felt he would die if Masaki left. He needed Masaki. Like it was already a part of him.

Masaki ran his eyes through their clothes thrown on the floor, shirt above shirt and underwear above underwear. He felt ashamed by his own actions, guilty by his own selfishness. But now there was no turning back.

“Stay a little longer… We can tell your parents that you were helping me with my homework…” Morinaga childishly said, like a kid that was not ready to let go of his favorite toy. But, to Morinaga, Masaki was no toy and he would never let go of him.

“I already said it last time.” Masaki said and laughed. They were running out of excuses, and it seemed harder and harder to fool their parents, as the rumors grew stronger.

“Say it again. They won’t mind.” The younger man said in a faint voice, looking deep into his lover’s eyes. “I don’t want you to go, Masaki-san. I want to be with you forever. It feels like… I don’t know myself without you anymore; you’re already a part of me. I can’t remember how it was when we weren’t together.” Morinaga seemed desperate as he said that, and Masaki bit his lips.

“Don’t say that, Tetsuhiro. I’m not that great. You’re… Good enough for me.” Masaki admitted. He felt guilty for taking away the innocence of that kid. If only he could go back…

“I’m not. I want to be able to stay beside you and you not feel guilty about it. I want you to be proud of me.” Morinaga said, his breath was getting harder and quicker as he got even more agitated.

“I am.” Masaki firmly said and gripped Morinaga’s face. “I am proud of you, Tetsuhiro. I’m not ashamed.” He said, and kissed Morinaga on his lips. Morinaga closed his eyes and seemed to calm down. “I want to show you around, but I can’t. I’m sorry about everything, Tetsuhiro, I’m sorry. I promise you everything will be fine…” Masaki went silent with a kiss from Morinaga. He closed his eyes and tried to calm his heart.

“I love you, Masaki-san.” Morinaga said with a hoarse voice when their faces parted, and he planted a light kiss on Masaki’s neck. “So much… That I don’t know what to do.”

Masaki sadly looked at Morinaga. That lost child, that kid whom he had corrupted. He did not pity Morinaga. He pitted himself. The man who loved his lover’s brother. He took advantage of an innocent kid who had nothing to do with his problem. As time passed by, the guilty grew stronger in his heart, consuming his soul, his consciousness.

“I love you too…” He said in a kind tone, resting his face on Morinaga’s hair and closing his eyes. But he wasn’t there anymore. He was with the person who owned his everything.

“…Kunihiro.”

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I hope you don’t get mad at me for writing a fic like this. i.i
I wanted to show how Morinaga loved Masaki back there. Show how devoted and innocent he was, and Masaki was dying with so much guilty inside him.
I consider this fic to take part when they had their relationship climax, the best part of it.
I don’t really know how Morinaga was back there, I think he was very innocent and devoted. Anyway, I wanted to make him completely different from how he is now, when he still wasn’t hurt.
I know I have to post the seventh chapter of Realize It, but it won’t come today. I’m working on it, just be a little more patient xD
Well, tell me what you think!
Thanks for reading! \o\

Realize it! - Chapter 6

2008-11-30T14:36:24Z

Chapter 6 is here!

Hope you guys like it.

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Warnings: Nothing.

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Masaki woke up that morning a little bit later than he used to. He had come back late the night before; he had to keep his promise, to give Souichi a last night with Morinaga. It was Sunday, so he though both of them would be home. He didn’t want to share Morinaga with Souichi anymore, so he though he would ask Morinaga to go sightseeing with him.

He stretched himself before he got up. He made the bed and got out of the bedroom. The noise of water falling made it clear that someone was taking a shower, and when his eyes met Souichi’s, he knew he would have to spend some time alone with him before Morinaga got out of the bathroom.

“Good morning, Tatsumi-san.” Masaki said with a kind tone. Souichi looked angrily at him and turned his face without saying anything.

Masaki thought that that was funny, but he didn’t say anything. He quietly sat at the table, next to Senpai, who was obviously bothered with that, and started eating.

“Then, how was it yesterday night? Did you have sex with Tetsuhiro?” Masaki asked with an ironic tone, and he watched every single reaction of Souichi.

“Shut up! You have no right to be here, why don’t you leave?!” Souichi yelled, and he was afraid that Morinaga had heard, but he didn’t stop the water from falling so he assumed that Morinaga didn’t hear it.

“I’m not leaving alone. I’m taking Tetsuhiro with me, so you’d better be prepared. I’m not going to be the nice guy anymore.” Masaki said, as if declaring war, like yesterday’s conversation wasn’t enough.

“You’re not taking him with you!” Souichi said with an angry tone. He didn’t want to say that and he didn’t want to hear that coming out of his own mouth, but he also didn’t want Morinaga to go.

The situation was becoming unbearable just when Morinaga got out of the bathroom. “Just when did he turn de shower off?” Souichi thought but he didn’t remember. Maybe he was too distracted thinking about how to kill Masaki and make that look like an accident. Morinaga looked at the two men having breakfast and gave a strange smile to them.

“Good morning, Masaki-san.” He said. He already said that to Senpai, so he didn’t have to say that again.

“Good morning, Tetsuhiro.” Masaki said, smiling to the younger man.

Morinaga soon joined them, trying to break the awkward silence but not really knowing how to do it, and just when he thought about something to say, Senpai suddenly got up with a loud noise. He took his plate and put it inside the sink, passing through the table and going to his bedroom without saying a word. Morinaga followed him with his eyes, and started accepting the idea that Senpai’s mood wouldn’t get better until Masaki had left.

“I think he doesn’t like me.” Masaki suddenly said, driving his ex-lover attention back to him. Morinaga saw how disappointed he seemed to be, and soon tried to deny that.

“Not at all, Masaki-san! Senpai’s always in a bad mood in the morning, and it takes some time for him to start getting used with someone. He just needs some more time.” Though he said that with confidence, he couldn’t really believe his own words. He wished they were true, Morinaga wanted so bad that Masaki and Senpai got along well.

“Well, I hope you’re right. I think he is a nice guy. He must be, since you like him so much.” Masaki said in an innocent voice, making Morinaga blush.

The younger man averted his eyes from Masaki’s and opened his mouth, ready to say something. “It’s not what you think.” But why? Why would he say that? It was exactly what Masaki was thinking. He liked Senpai. He loved him. He already said that so many times, so why would he deny that now?

Morinaga bit his own lips, wanting and, at the same time, not wanting to say it. Confused, he felt relieved when Souichi got out of his bedroom, looked intensively at both of them and then kept walking.

“I’m leaving.” He simply said, opening the door and closing it with a loud noise.

The two men stared at the door for some seconds until Masaki spoke first.

“Where did he go?” He asked with genuine curiosity. Not that he was complaining, but he really didn’t expect Souichi to leave him alone with Morinaga after the conversation they had had.

“Ah… He went to see his little sister. He told me something about it yesterday when we were at the university.” Morinaga said, remembering that Senpai told him that. He would probably be back only by dinner time. “She’s a very nice girl. I’d like to see her but I feel bad for leaving you here alone.”

“Ah! You don’t have to! You can go with him too, Tetsuhiro!” Masaki said, his voice full with guilty.

“There’s no need to worry, Masaki-san. I can go see her other day. You’ll be back to work and leave here, but I can go see her any day I want. Please, don’t bother with it.”

Masaki looked at Morinaga for a few seconds, and he smiled, saying an ‘ok’. He finished eating and waited for Morinaga to be done to, and they washed the plates together, Morinaga washing it and Masaki wiping it up.

“Today is Sunday, Masaki-san, do you have anything to do?” Morinaga asked when they were done with housework.

“No, nothing. Are you going out, Tetsuhiro?” Masaki asked turning his gaze towards the younger man.

“No. Well, do you want to go anywhere? Sightseeing?” Morinaga asked, but Masaki already knew what he wanted to do.

He didn’t want to go out. In public he couldn’t do anything with Morinaga, people would see them. But inside the apartment, he could do anything he wanted and he didn’t have to worry about anything. And if Souichi arrived and saw something between Morinaga and Masaki, it would be even better.

“No. I want to stay here. It’s comfortable and I feel that I can be more relaxed. I want to do something with you.” Masaki said, staring directly into Morinaga’s eyes, with an innocent smile.

Morinaga blushed with that. He knew Masaki wasn’t implying anything, but still, he felt a little bit embarrassed with what he heard. He opened and closed his mouth a couple of times, trying to say something, but he couldn’t think of anything to say and not sound weird.

“I love it when you get embarrassed and don’t know what to say.” Masaki chuckled when he said that, and Morinaga got even more embarrassed.

“Th-Then… Do you want to watch a movie?” Morinaga asked, saying the first thing that ran through his mind.

Masaki smiled with that. A movie would be perfect.

“That’d be great.” He simply said.

Souichi was walking fast, but he wasn’t in a hurry, he wasn’t late and he wasn’t running away from anything. Aside from his own feelings.

He didn’t want to go out. He didn’t want to leave Morinaga and Masaki alone. He wanted to stay there and stop Masaki from stealing away his stupid kouhai. Morinaga was, after all, very, very useful. Souichi wouldn’t find any other lab assistant like him. Or, at least, that was what he was convincing himself. This was the only reason he was so pissed about Morinaga getting stolen away.

But he promised. He promised Kanako that he would go meet her today, it had been almost a month since he last saw her, but he couldn’t help, he was busy with college. So today he absolutely had to go, even though he really didn’t want to.

At first, Souichi didn’t trust Masaki. Way before meeting him, he didn’t trust the other. But now, after the conversation they had, he definitely didn’t trust the other. He wanted to tell Morinaga what Masaki told him, he wanted Morinaga to know, but he couldn’t tell. Masaki recorded their conversation and Souichi was sure that the other would manipulate it and use it on his own benefit. Plus, he wasn’t so sure Morinaga would believe him. Even after what happened, that fucking idiot still trusted Masaki.

When Souichi noticed, he was standing right in front of Matsuda-san’s house. He blinked a couple of times and shook his head, trying to stop thinking about his stupid kouhai. He sounded the bell and soon Kanako opened the door, smiling.

“Welcome, nii-san!”

Souichi smiled and, as he entered the house, he thought that Masaki couldn’t do anything in just a couple of hours.

Morinaga squeezed his pants fabric in his hands firmly placed on his knees. Masaki smiled while noticing that, and got even closer do Morinaga, their shoulders touching and sharing the heat of their bodies.

Morinaga was trying really hard to pay attention on the movie, but he couldn’t focus feeling Masaki that close to him. He swallowed hard his saliva and tried to focus once again, but not being able to.

“I’m cold, Tetsuhiro.” Masaki suddenly said, making the younger man give a little jump.

Morinaga couldn’t understand why Masaki was cold. It wasn’t winter and Masaki was already with a long sleeve T-shirt. Plus, he wasn’t shaking; Morinaga could feel because their bodies were still touching.

Masaki waited for his ex-lover to do something, but as time went by, he felt frustrated. Morinaga wasn’t that slow when they were together, and even if they weren’t together anymore, Morinaga wouldn’t risk letting Masaki get flu or something.

He kept staring Morinaga in the eye when he grabbed the younger man’s arm and passed it behind his back, involving himself in a hug. Morinaga got bright red with that and gasped as Masaki made himself even more comfortable in Morinaga’s arm, resting his head on his ex-lover shoulder.

“Ma-Masaki-san! Do you… Do you want me to get you a blanket?” He asked. He had to admit that he wasn’t comfortable in that kind of situation, and he wanted to get away from it as fast as he could.

Masaki smiled while hearing that. He showed no sign that he was embarrassed and also looked like he was really enjoying that.

“There’s no need, Tetsuhiro. I’m better this way than with a blanket.” He answered with sincerity.

Morinaga blushed and turned his gaze at the TV again, trying to focus once more. He remembered the time when he and Masaki would watch a movie together and they were alone. Most of the time they would be like that and, sometimes, they wouldn’t even finish watching the movie. He blushed a lot more while thinking of that and quickly started thinking of something else. He felt like he was betraying Senpai like that.

Meanwhile, Masaki was paying a lot of attention in every single movement of Morinaga. His ex-lover sure was cute, feeling uncomfortable in that kind of situation but not knowing how to get away from it. For a first movement, Masaki thought that that was a good reaction.

A couple of minutes went by without any of them doing or saying anything, and that was when Masaki decided that he needed to take a step further. He moved his hand and grabbed Morinaga’s other hand, the one that wasn’t over his shoulders, and enlaced their fingers. Morinaga gasped and looked shocked at their hands together.

“Do you remember, Tetsuhiro? We used to hold hands every time when we were alone.” Masaki said with a nostalgic tone on his voice. He was smiling and squeezed Morinaga’s hand, waiting for him to do the same.

“Ah… I…” Morinaga didn’t know what to say. He was embarrassed and even more uncomfortable than before. Back when they were lovers, Morinaga loved to hold Masaki’s hand, he would do that all the time when they were alone, but now he had Senpai, and he couldn’t do that, he couldn’t hold Masaki’s hand anymore.

“I really liked to stay like this, Tetsuhiro.” Masaki was talking again, and as he noticed Morinaga trying to pull his hand away, he squeezed it once more. “I still like to stay like this, but it only feels good like this when it’s with you. Did you know that?”

No answer was given, Morinaga was too nervous for that. He didn’t know why he was nervous and he didn’t like that. Also, all his efforts to resist seemed to be, little by little, fading away. He bit his lips and, once more, tried to pull away his hand.

“Please, Tetsuhiro. Just now, I want to be like this with you.” The older man asked in a way that he was almost begging. Morinaga looked at him and, when he saw those eyes screaming for consent, he couldn’t say no. Instead, he just nodded with his head and turned to the TV again.

Masaki smiled with that. It couldn’t have gone any better.

“I’m sorry, Tetsuhiro.” Masaki suddenly said in a low voice, looking down.

Morinaga looked at him, confused, and he tried to understand why Masaki was apologizing, but he couldn’t think of anything.

“Sorry for what, Masaki-san?” Morinaga asked, and Masaki looked at him.

“For everything. I mean, I’m so sorry I don’t know what to do. Back then when we were dating, I feel like I used you, and now I’m really sorry! I know I should have protected you when Kunihiro found us out, I know I should have done something, but… That time I couldn’t think of anything, I was shocked. But now that I think better about it, I know it was my entire fault. For that, I apologize!”

Masaki said all of that in a desperate tone, looking intensively inside Morinaga’s eyes, like that would show how much he regret all he did. From the corner of his eyes little tears were visible, and it pained Morinaga to see his ex-lover that way.

“It’s ok, Masaki-san.” Morinaga said. He was smiling at Masaki and gently touched Masaki’s face with his hand that wasn’t being held. “It doesn’t matter anymore.” He said in a kind tone.

Masaki was shocked. He didn’t expect to be forgiven that easily, he was prepared for a fight with Morinaga, and he was surprised when that didn’t happen. But then again, that was why he liked Morinaga that much.

Soon he was smiling as much as Morinaga and he squeezed his hand again. This time, Morinaga squeezed it back, as to reinforce that he had forgiven Masaki.

“Well, let’s go back to the movie.” Morinaga said, as to end that conversation, and he turned his face towards the TV.

The two of them fell into silence, the only thing that was being heard was the TV, but Masaki still wasn’t satisfied. He kept looking at his ex-lover, and he knew that Morinaga must have noticed, so why he was pretending not to know?

“Tetsuhiro, look this way.” Masaki got tired of waiting, and called Morinaga attention. When their eyes met, he gave a malicious smile.

Masaki leaned his body towards Morinaga and, ignoring the shocked look on his ex-lover’s face, he captured his lips, closing his eyes and bringing their bodies together, as he forced his tongue inside Morinaga’s mouth.

Morinaga didn’t know what to do. He knew Masaki was going to kiss him, he was not stupid, but he couldn’t avoid that. He let Masaki kiss him. It was almost like he wanted that kiss. But he didn’t want! Yet, he didn’t push Masaki.

He felt the hot tongue in his mouth, caressing his own, inviting it for a kiss. He felt everything, he knew everything. It was the same taste, the same lips texture, the same heat. It was all the same. Masaki was kissing him.

And, surprisingly, he was kissing Masaki back.

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Please, don’t kill me. i.i

Well, Masaki is part of the story, so why not use him for something good?! Hahaha xD

I struggled a little with this chapter, was it too fast? Was it bad? But in the end I decided to do it, anyway.

I read the summary for the second part of the extra (thanks a lot,
ikako ! <3) and Kunihiro and Masaki are probably going to get together, sooo cute, I love them! First I thought Masaki would just have sex with Kunihiro and throw him away, but I was wrong. And this is kind of bad for my fanfic, but never mind! Let’s just pretend that this second part never existed, hahaha xD

I don’t know when I’m going to post chapter 7. I haven’t even started to write it. I don’t even know what to write! Though I have an idea, but it’s just one ._.

Oh well, I’ll try to think of something good.

So, I think this is it.

Thanks for reading! \o\

Realize it! - Chapter 5

2008-11-16T22:20:02Z

Heya, I’m back! xD
I didn’t have enough time to write this week, but here I am!
Enjoy \o\

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Warnings: 18+, please 8D

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“Can I get Tetsuhiro back?”

Souichi couldn’t believe on his own ears. That guy actually came there to get back together with Morinaga?

“Well, can I?” Masaki asked again, since the other man didn’t say anything for quite some time.

Souichi focused his eyes back on the other. He was unsure about what to say. He didn’t want to hand Morinaga over, but still, he was not a homo and having a fucking homo out of his feet would be a wonderful thing.

But then he remembered what Masaki did to Morinaga. The betrayal and all the other bad things that happened from the fact that they were dating. Masaki didn’t even try to protect Morinaga from the rumors, and Souichi hated that!

“Why should I?” He asked in a calm tone, even thought he wasn’t that calm.

Masaki smiled with that. He didn’t know whether Tetsuhiro and Tatsumi were going out or not, but he didn’t care. He wanted Testuhiro back and he wasn’t giving up.

“Well, I really like Tetsuhiro, and he liked me a lot in the past. He could like me again.” He said, like it was the simplest thing in the world.

Souichi closed his fist. He hated what he just heard. How could Masaki talk like that? Didn’t he understand what he did to Morinaga?

“Yeah, but that was before you betrayed him.” Souichi said with a firm voice. He looked at Masaki’s long sleeve T-shirt. He knew why the other always wore long sleeves. He had to hide the scars on his wrists. “And you even tried to kill yourself, like you were the victim there.”

Masaki stared at him for some seconds, it was almost like he couldn’t believe Souichi knew all that. But them he smiled, full with sarcasm on his thin lips.

“Oh, yeah? I have to admit, I was too naïve that time. I’m glad that time goes by. That was a long time ago. After that I got out of the hospital my father wouldn’t let me get out of our house. That was when I started to think that Kunihiro didn’t deserve my feelings. Tetsuhiro was always so kind to me, it was him I should like. Of course, after I got my revenge on Kunihiro, I came to get back what I lost a long time ago.” Masaki said. He didn’t know why he was telling that to Souichi, but he felt that that would make the other angry and it was fun to tease him.

Souichi couldn’t believe that. How could Masaki be so cruel? He betrayed Morinaga and yet he believed he had the right to get him back?!

“What the fuck are you saying?!” He yelled. He was so mad he couldn’t stop, and he didn’t want to. “After all you did to Morinaga?! You don’t even have the right to be here! You haven’t talked to him for years and now you think you can act like nothing happened?!”

The other man kept quite even after Souichi stopped yelling. Souichi was so mad, he didn’t know why he still hadn’t hit that guy. Masaki realized that he other wanted to hit him, so he started laughing.

“What? You want to hit me? You can’t. Tetsuhiro sure will be so mad at you, because I am ‘Masaki-san’, remember?” Masaki said, his voice full with sarcasm. “And why do you care so much? I won’t use Tetsuhiro, he is the guy I always wanted for me, I just couldn’t realize it earlier. Or… You don’t want me to steal him from you? Remember, you are not a homo.”

Souichi bit his lips. Masaki would steal Morinaga away. He knew he shouldn’t matter with that, but if that happened, he wouldn’t have the other around him anymore, he wouldn’t be able to hit him, nor yell with him, nor kiss and have sex with him...

“He will never get back with you.” Souichi said before he even noticed. “I’ll tell him everything you told me, and he-“

“Oh, will you?” Masaki interrupted him, getting one step closer. “And who do you think he will believe in?” Souichi was sure Morinaga would believe him, but then Masaki get the hand out of his pocket, and showed a tape recorder. “You are not a homo and will never be, will you?” That made Souichi froze and, for the next moment, he didn’t know what to say.

“How… What… “ He couldn’t form a logical sentence. Since when did Masaki start recording their conversation? What was he going to do with that?

“Speechless? Well, you didn’t think I wouldn’t notice, do you? The way Testuhiro gaze at you. It’s so obvious that he is in love with you, and you sure must know. But I wonder how long will he love you, since it is an unrequited love?” Masaki smiled with the way Souichi was looking at him, he was in a complete shock. “So, you’d better not tell him this, or it will only make him come back to me even faster.” He said, while getting closer to Souichi. “Right, Tatsumi-san?” He finally said, when he was close enough to the other, his voice with the same sarcasm as before.

Souichi opened and closed his mouth several times, trying to say something. Masaki knew it. He knew Morinaga liked him, and yet he was so calm about it. Did he not understand the meaning of that? If Morinaga was already in love with someone else, it would be really difficult for them to get back together!

He was getting ready to say something back to Masaki, but when he finally found an answer good enough, Masaki took one step back, gave one last smile to Souichi and said:

“I’m going out for a while, Tatsumi-san. I don’t think I’m going to be back until very late, so you should enjoy this night with Tetsuhiro. It might be the last, you know?” His words were cruel, but yet he had a really calm expression on his face. He made a small bow and got out of the apartment.

Morinaga sighed hard, showing how tired he was. He had finally finished the experiment and showed it to Yamada-sensei. After the man approved it, he said Morinaga could go home, and he really wanted to go.

He locked the lab and got out of the university, heading home. He remembered that Senpai was long gone. Maybe he bumped into Masaki? Did the two of them meet each other? Did they talk? Did they go along well?

He had to admit that he was concerned, after all, the most important person in his life, which was Senpai, was not getting along well with the other most important person in his life, which was Masaki. “In the past. Not now.” He thought. Now he could only think about his dear Senpai.

Morinaga finally reached the apartment he lived. He took his time, trying to listen something inside there, something that proved Senpai and Masaki were talking and being friends. He had figured that Masaki would probably be back by this time, since it was already dinner time, but he heard nothing. Confused, he sounded the doorbell, and it took a few seconds for Senpai to show up.

“Hi, Senpai! Sorry I’m this late. It’s already dinner time, I figured out you’d be hungry so I bought some food.” He said, smiling and showing the bag he was carrying.

Souichi looked at him for some seconds. He instinctively thought about the conversation he had with Masaki. Masaki was going to steal Morinaga away. He knew he didn’t like that, but he didn’t want to know the reason for that.

“I’m not hungry.” He simply said, turning his back to his kouhai and going back to his room.

Morinaga was confused. Senpai was not exactly mad, but something about him was different. Senpai looked at him in a different way, he could not see which way was, but he knew something was wrong. Moreover, Senpai almost never skipped dinner. Something happened!

“Senpai, is everything ok?” He asked, getting inside, taking his coach off and putting the food on the table. He followed his senpai to his bedroom.

“Yes.” Souichi simply said. He turned over, and saw that Morinaga was in his bedroom. “What the hell are you doing here?!” He asked, not remembering that he invited his kouhai to his bedroom.

“I’m just worried about you. You look different. Did anything happen while I was not around?” Morinaga was obviously worried. Souichi didn’t want to tell him about the conversation he had with Masaki. He didn’t want Morinaga to know the real reason why Masaki was here. He didn’t want Morinaga to think about Masaki more than necessary.

“Nothing happened. Now get out.” He said. He needed to be alone, he thought he could be with Morinaga without thinking about what happened earlier, he prepared himself, but now that the situation was happening, he saw that he couldn’t be like always and he absolutely hated that.

“Senpai…” Morinaga started, trying to say something. But then something occurred to him. “Oh, where is Masaki-san?”

Morinaga didn’t know what effect those words would cause on his senpai. The other man stared at him for long seconds, no feelings clearly showing on his eyes. He took a deep breath and slowly turned around.

“He went out.” Senpai simply said, not getting mad nor anything like that.

The younger man froze for a second. Senpai not getting angry meant that something was terribly wrong. He got even more worried than before, and now that Masaki wasn’t around, he could ask whatever he wanted and he would get an answer.

“Senpai, what’s wrong? Please, tell me! I’m worried about you!” Morinaga said, starting to get desperate.

Souichi didn’t answer, he continued with his back facing Morinaga, while he tried to distract himself with a book that was on his table. The younger man thought that he hadn’t heard and asked again.

“Senpai, what’s happened?” This time, he raised his hand, reaching Senpai’s arm. Senpai wasn’t expecting that, he startled and moved his arm away from Morinaga’s touch.

He couldn’t bear being touched by his kouhai, not at that moment. He was confused. He didn’t know why the hell he was so concerned with that! Morinaga was free to do whatever he wanted, and if he wanted to go back to Fukuoka with Masaki, he was free to do that too. Senpai couldn’t replace him, but he could find a new assistant, so why was he so worried about the fact that Masaki wanted Morinaga back?!

“Don’t touch me!” He said with an angry tone. “Stop messing up with my mind! You’re confusing me!” He yelled, closing his fists. “I don’t know who I am anymore! I think about things that I don’t like, I don’t want to think about them! It’s your entire fault!” He yelled even higher, even more. Soon he felt tears dripping from his eyes, and he raised his hand to clean them. “Shit.”

Morinaga couldn’t believe that he caused those things to Senpai. He loved Senpai, he wanted the man to be happy, and knowing that he was the one who caused Senpai so much pain made him feel like to worst person in the world. He watched Senpai cleaning his tears that wouldn’t stop falling and that devastated him.

“I’m sorry, Senpai!” He said. He wanted to hug Senpai and he couldn’t resist. He got closer to him and hugged him, tightening his arms around the man’s body and burring his face on his shoulder. “I’m so very sorry, Senpai! I didn’t mean to do those things to you. I love you, Senpai, I don’t want you to get hurt.”

At first, Souichi wanted to get rid of Morinaga’s hug. Being that close to the other only made the situation worst. But when he heard the other apologizing, that calmed him. He could feel how Morinaga was regretting all of that, even though he didn’t know what exactly he did to his senpai. And moreover, the older man felt really relived when he heard his kouhai love confession.

When he raised his arms to hug his kouhai, he couldn’t stop. He put one hand on the back of Morinaga’s neck and the other around his body, also burring his face on the other shoulder. His tears stopped falling a few seconds later and, little by little, he felt his body relaxing.

Morinaga smiled when he felt that Senpai relaxed. He was happy that he was the one causing that. He quickly looked around the room, finding Senpai’s bed just behind him. He figured that the man was probably lost in deep thoughts so he took the chance and slowly started walking towards the bed. Senpai didn’t seemed to notice that, only when Morinaga threw him on the bed and cling on top of him.

“What the hell are you doing?!” Souichi asked with anger, his hands on Morinaga’s shoulder, keeping a distance between their bodies.

“I still remember. You promised we would have sex.” The younger man said, a little smile on his lips. Souichi blushed with that.

“It was only that night! The promise is over! Get out!” Souichi said, pushing his kouhai away, but that wasn’t working.

“No. Senpai, I need you. I can’t live without you anymore, my body can’t live without you anymore. Please.” Morinaga was kind of begging, but he almost always had to, when Senpai was resisting.

The younger man leaned his back, capturing Senpai’s mouth with his, invading his mouth with his hungry tongue. Senpai shut his eyes, feeling Morinaga’s tongue childish playing with his own, delicately inviting it for a deeper kiss. Souichi couldn’t resist it for too long, so he quickly started to kiss Morinaga back, his hands still on his kouhai’s shoulders.

Morinaga was still kind of hugging Senpai, and then he moved his hand to Senpai’s shirt, slowly unbuttoning it and playfully touching Senpai’s pale skin from time to time. He took off his senpai’s shirt, revealing the man bare skin. He broke the kiss and smiled while looking at Senpai’s chest.

“What the hell are you looking at?!” The older man asked, trying to sound angry in order to hide his embarrassment. No matter how many times they had sex, he was always embarrassed.

“At you. Senpai, you are so beautiful. I wish I could keep looking at you forever.” The kouhai said and, with that, he leaned his head, taking with his mouth one of Senpai’s nipple, while grabbing the other with one of his hands.

Souichi wanted to talk back, call Morinaga an idiot, but as soon as he opened his mouth, the only thing that got out was a sweet moan. Morinaga pinched Senpai’s nipple with his hand, twisting it from left to right, while he bit the other one with mouth, sucking it and enjoying every moan that Senpai couldn’t keep inside his mouth.

He could feel Senpai’s skin getting hotter, and he knew that the man was getting exited. So was he, but he had to be patient. Though he was good at preparing Senpai, the man always felt pain, so he had to take the maximum time he could giving him pleasure.

Morinaga got away from Souichi skin, looking his no longer pink nipples, now all red and hard. He smiled, touching them with his hand, driving his mouth attention to Senpai’s neck, biting and sucking the skin, watching it turn red and a lit bit purple.

“Uhnn… Ahh… Mo… Mori… Hn…” Senpai was trying to say something, but Morinaga didn’t want to hear. He would probably be told to stop, and he didn’t want to. He loved tasting Senpai’s skin.

He kept biting and touching Senpai, and he slid his leg to the middle of Senpai’s legs, rubbing it against the man’s member. He felt the erection getting harder, and Souichi let out a loud moan.

“Ngh! Morinaga… Morinaga… D-… Hnn…” Senpai was getting frustrated, he wanted to speak! He tried pushing Morinaga away, his hands still over his shoulders, but he didn’t have the strength.

“What, Senpai?” Morinaga decided to ask, seeing how Senpai was getting desperate. He stopped biting his neck, touching his nipple and stroking his member with his leg, but he didn’t change his position.

“Stop doing it.” Souichi said, panting a little.

“But you like, Senpai. And I love to hear your moans, it only makes me harder.” He said with a smile full of satisfaction. Senpai could say he didn’t want that, but his body clearly showed that he enjoyed that.

“Shut up!” The older man said, blushing a little. Morinaga drove his attention to Senpai’s pants.

“Is it tight? I can take if off for you, if you want. Just say the word.” Morinaga said. He knew Senpai would never say something like that, but he wanted to try.

“Hell no!” Souichi said, he would never ever say that! “Ahhh! Don’t… Hnn…”

His kouhai started stroking Senpai’s member with his hand, touching the most sensitive spot even if he was not directly touching the skin. Senpai moaned again, louder, harder, and Morinaga smiled. He could feel the member growing bigger and he also felt the fabric getting a little bit wet.

“I bet you are almost coming, Senpai. It’s getting a little wet. Does it hurt? Your pants must be getting tighter. You want me to take them off?” He asked again, teasing Senpai with his finger.

“Nnngh….” Senpai bit his lips. He didn’t want to say that. His kouhai kept stroking his member. “Ah… Enough…” He thought, and was forced to swallow his pride. “Mori… Morinaga…” He started, panting harder. “Take… Take them off…” He said, eyes closed, not wanting to see Morinaga’s face.

“Hn? Take what off, Senpai?” Morinaga asked. He knew what Senpai meant, but he wanted to tease him a little more.

“Fuck! My… Pants… My pants… Take them off… Hnnn!”

That was enough, and soon Souichi heard an unzipping noise and his member got some more space to grow and leak, even though he was still with his underwear. Morinaga took the chance and took off his own shirt as well, and Souichi couldn’t stop looking at his kouhai’s body.

He had to admit, Morinaga was charming. Beautiful, he could say, with his perfect skin and thin body. Sometimes he wanted to touch it, see what kind of reaction he would get, but he always stopped thinking about that as soon as the idea hit him.

Morinaga saw Senpai watching him and smiled with that. But he didn’t have time to lose, Masaki could come back at anytime, so he started touching Senpai’s body again, driving one of his hands to inside Senpai’s underwear.

“Hnnn… Ahhh… Hahhh…” Souichi moaned, feeling Morinaga grabbing his member and stroking it, starting slowly and then quickening his tempo. He released more and more precum as his kouhai stroked his erection.

“You’re releasing a lot, Senpai.” Morinaga said, teasing his senpai a little, running his fingers through the wet skin.

“Shut… Up…! Uhnnn…” Senpai was clearing trying not to moan, but he obviously couldn’t. He closed his eyes, feeling even more the pleasure sensation. He was about to come, with Morinaga masturbating him and lightly squeezing his sacks.

“Come, Senpai.” Morinaga whispered in his ear, his chest touching Senpai’s.

It didn’t take too long after that for Senpai to come, getting Morinaga hand all wet and sticky. Senpai panted hard, trying to regain his breath, but Morinaga didn’t wait for that to happen. He finally took Senpai’s underwear off and spread the man’s legs, getting a great view to himself.

He used his hand soaked with Senpai’s cum as a lube, and inserted one finger in Senpai’s entrance. Souichi bit his tongue and resisted, tightening his hole. Morinaga was used to that, so he took his time caressing Senpai’s inside and pushing his finger further, trying to reach Senpai’s prostate. It took him some time until he finally reached it, and that caused a reaction to Senpai, making him relax and moan.

Morinaga smiled and inserted the second finger, working his way to loosen Senpai’s entrance. Senpai moaned every time his kouhai touched his weak point, and it happened several times. His member became hot again and soon came back to live, getting harder every time Morinaga touched and caressed his prostate. Soon the third finger went him, working together with the other two.

“Ahhh… Hahhh…” Souichi opened his mouth, trying to say something. “Morinaga… Mori… Naga… Enough… Stop…” He said. He didn’t like Morinaga using his fingers inside him. Sure it felt good, but, for some reason, that was a lot more embarrassing than having his kouhai’s member inside.

“Sure I can go in now?” Morinaga asked, thinking it was too early. Senpai didn’t answer, so he caressed him a little bit more before removing his fingers, after a last thrust.

He took his pants and his underwear off with one quick move, revealing his member almost erect as Senpai’s. The older man didn’t dare to look at his kouhai’s member, too embarrassed for that. Morinaga spread his legs even more and positioned himself. Souichi instantly tightened himself again.

“Senpai, relax. I’m not going to hurt you.” The kouhai said. Senpai was always scared of having sex, so it was always difficult to enter him.

Morinaga slowly moved his hips, entering a little inside Souichi, who gave out a cry. He thrust again, a little bit more this time, getting further inside the other.

“Hahhh… Ahh…” Senpai tried to relax, breathing slowly and, little by little, getting a little less tight. Morinaga moved again, slowly, until he finally got all inside Senpai.

Souichi kept his eyes closed, gritting his teeth while trying to get used to Morinaga inside of him. His member was also hurting, painfully erect, seeming to react more with Morinaga’s member filling inside him.

“Senpai, I’m going to move, ok?”

Souichi didn’t answer, so Morinaga started moving slowly, trying to get Senpai once again used to that. He got his body closer to Senpai’s, strongly hugging him, and Senpai enlaced his kouhai’s neck with his arms.

Morinaga’s movement was getting faster and stronger with every thrust, and every movement made Senpai moan. Morinaga loved to hear that.

The sound of their body liquids making a squelching noise filled the room. Senpai hated to hear that, he could almost die of embarrassment. He felt his kouhai thrusting against him and moaning together with him, their bodies sweating and getting the sheets wet. He felt Morinaga’s member throb, and he was sure that Morinaga was feeling his own member doing that too, while he masturbated Senpai, squeezing his hand from bottom to top, getting Senpai to release more and more precum.

“You’re so tight, Senpai.” Morinaga said between a moan and another, pinching one of Senpai’s nipples with his other hand.

Souichi wanted to tell him to shut up, but he didn’t have enough air inside his lungs. And also, he got more excited hearing Morinaga talking some dirty things, though he didn’t want to admit that.

“Nghnnn… Hahhh… Ahhh…” He and Morinaga moaned together, Senpai moving his hips, trying to match Morinaga’s movement.

Morinaga thrust countless times, his hand all wet again with Senpai’s member’s liquid, the noise of their bodies making love getting louder as time passed by.

They came together with Morinaga’s last thrust. They were panting hard so there was no way to say anything. Morinaga took his member out and kissed Senpai first on the forehead and then on his lips.

Senpai watched him slowly got up and took the clothes from the floor, starting to fold them. He wanted to know what his kouhai was going to do, but he was too tired, so he fell asleep while watching the younger man putting on his underwear.

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Soooo, I’m sorry for the wait! xD
I had to study, but I wrote some things on my notebook. It was half English half Portuguese, so it took me some time to write, translate it and read it a couple of times to fix the mistakes (There are still some mistakes. Sorry). I usually write everything in English, but since this is my first time writing lemon in English it was kind of complicated. It wasn’t my best lemon but I’m trying!
And I loved to write the conversation between Senpai and Masaki! I have to admit, I really like some drama xD
Oh, yeah, I have to explain a little thing. Since I don’t know if the second part of the extra where Masaki shows up (btw, did someone upload it already?) has a happy or a sad ending, I decided to just stick with the first part. Masaki and Kunihiro made some dirty things and Masaki went away and this is the end! I really need Masaki for this story, I’m sorry! xD
Well, this is it. Don’t know how long it will take for me to finish the next chapter, I have some ideas about what to write but nothing so sure. I’ll try to write it fast!
Thanks for reading!

Realize it! - Chapter 4

2008-10-31T12:32:40Z

Hey! \o\
Here it is chapter 4! I tried to put some action here, but I don’t think I was able to… xD’
I don’t want to ruin the surprise, so we’ll talk in the end of the chapter.
Oh, and happy Halloween!
Enjoy! \o\

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Warning: None. Sorry, guys i.i

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When Souichi woke up in the morning, he was like usual. Alone on his bed but, somehow, that didn’t seem right. It took him some time to remember that he and Morinaga slept together. He looked around and found himself alone in his bedroom, and then he thought that Morinaga might have been preparing breakfast, like every morning.

Souichi got up and got out of the bedroom. He went to the bathroom and was almost opening the door when it opened by itself. He startled and looked directly into Masaki eyes. The other smiled only with his lips, but Souichi saw that his eyes were like they were laughing.

“Maybe he heard us yesterday? It can’t be!” He bit his tongue and tried to convince himself it was only his impression.

“Good morning, Tatsumi-san.”

Souichi could sense some kind of irony in Masaki’s voice, but when he was about to reply, the other got out of his way. Souichi followed him with his eyes and then got in the bathroom, getting ready to take a shower.

“Morning, Tetsuhiro.” Masaki said when he got in the kitchen.

“Ah, good morning, Masaki-san! Did you sleep well?” Morinaga asked, taking his eyes off the food for just a moment.

“Yes, I did.” Masaki said with a kind smile. Truth is, he slept more than well, after all, that was Morinaga’s bedroom, and everything there smelled of him.

“Good!” The younger man said, and the older one took from his hand the plate that he was going to take to the table. “Thanks. So, Masaki-san, do you have plans for the afternoon? Because Senpai and I are going to the university, we only come back at night. If you don’t, I’m afraid you’ll have to stay here alone.” Morinaga said, finishing with preparing breakfast.

“Don’t worry, Tetsuhiro. I’m going to meet a few acquaintances, and then I’m going to come back.”

“Oh, are you? Then, would you like me to give you my copy of the key? You might come back here and we still might not be back, so you won’t be locked outside.”

Masaki looked at Morinaga when he heard that. He didn’t know the other still trusted him that much, so he felt glad.

“Well, if it doesn’t trouble you…”

“It’s not a problem at all! I always come back with Senpai and he has one copy, too.” Morinaga said, sitting at the table together with Masaki.

Souichi got out of the bathroom that time. He had taken a quick shower and looked at Morinaga and Masaki with a strange face, though he didn’t say anything. He sat at the table too and started eating without saying anything. Morinaga was too scared to say something because he knew Senpai wasn’t in a good mood since Masaki arrived, so he remained in silence for the rest of the breakfast, and so did Masaki.

“Masaki-san, Senpai and I are going to the university. I left my key on the table at my bedroom, ok?” Morinaga said. He took the chance that Senpai was opening the door so he wouldn’t hear both of them talking.

“Ok. Thanks, Tetsuhiro. Be careful.” Masaki said, waving goodbye to the other. Morinaga smiled and waved too, then joining Senpai on his way to the university.

“And how long does he intend to be here?” Souichi asked, his bad mood clearly showed in his voice.

“Hn… I don’t know. He said he’s on vacation, but he didn’t say when it’ll be over.” Morinaga thought about anything that Masaki said that would lead to think when he would leave, but he didn’t remember anything like that.

“That fucking idiot intends to stay at our house during all his vacation?!” Souichi couldn’t believe that. He would kick that guy out!

Souichi kept walking but Morinaga didn’t follow him. He stopped and turned, looking at his kouhai who was with a strange face.

“What is it now?” He asked. Maybe Morinaga was mad because of what he said?

“Senpai… Just now you… You said… Our house?” Morinaga said carefully, not wanting to scare Senpai or anything. He was pretty sure he had a perfect audition but still, he wanted to confirm what he heard.

Senpai, on the other hand, didn’t realize what he said, and only when Morinaga asked that he remembered clearly. His cheeks turned bright red and he turned his face. He didn’t want to face his kouhai, he was too embarrassed. How the hell he ended up saying ‘our house’?!

“Shut up! It’s a share, a share!” He said, turning his back to Morinaga. “We’re going to be late, let’s go!”

For a second, Morinaga didn’t move. Senpai didn’t deny that he said ‘our house’, but he corrected himself. It didn’t matter, because Morinaga wasn’t really paying attention. He was sure that Senpai had already accepted the idea that they were living together and that that was their house. He just didn’t want to admit it.

“How long do you intend to be there? Move or I’ll leave you there!” Souichi said again. Morinaga smiled and started walking.

“Hey, Morinaga. How long are you going to be doing this?” Souichi asked. It was still early though he already had finished his experiments. He was a little bit tired because he couldn’t sleep very well with Morinaga hugging him, but he would never admit that, so he tried to be like normal. Now he was kind of exhausted.

“I need to finish it today. Yamada-sensei wants to take a look at the results. You can go first if you want, Senpai.” Morinaga said, looking at Senpai. His key was with Masaki, but there would be no problem if Senpai stayed at the house, he would open the door for his kouhai.

“Then I’m going. Finish it fast, I don’t want to be alone with that Masaki guy.” Senpai said. He didn’t know what he could do if he was alone with Masaki for too long. He would punch that guy, that’s for sure.

“Actually, Senpai…” Souichi was on his way to the door but he stopped when he heard Morinaga. He hated that hesitating tone, he knew that he wouldn’t hear a good thing. “Masaki-san went out, he said he was going to meet some acquaintances.” Morinaga said, looking apprehensive at his senpai.

Souichi didn’t know why Morinaga was so afraid of saying that. If Masaki was out, it meant he had to wait for someone to open the door for him to come in. And if this ‘someone’ meant ‘Souichi’, Masaki would be out all night long.

“Good.” Souichi said, turning and heading to the door again, but Morinaga’s voice stopped him once more.

“And… I gave him my key, so he could get in and out whenever he wanted.”

Morinaga watched as Senpai slowly turned back at him and closed his fist. He would hit Morinaga and Morinaga knew that. He closed his eyes, ready for the punch.

“What the hell were you thinking, you fucking idiot?!” Souichi yelled, hitting Morinaga right on his face. “You should talk to me before doing something like this! How stupid are you?!”

“What do you wish I did? I couldn’t let him locked outside the house!” Morinaga said, his hand over the place Senpai hit.

Souichi stopped. He couldn’t believe that his kouhai was fighting back because of that idiot! He closed his fist with more strength than he should have and ended up hurting himself.

“You could and you should! I hate that guy, he shouldn’t even be there!”

“Don’t hate him, Senpai! He looks very sorry for what he did in the past, he has been so kind since he got there!” Morinaga said, kind of desperate. He didn’t want Senpai to hate Masaki.

Senpai looked a last time at his kouhai and thought about something to say, but he was too tired for that.

“Whatever.” He said, leaving the laboratory and heading home.

Souichi was so pissed off that he almost forgot he was sleepy and wanted to throw himself on his bed as soon as he got home.

How could his stupid kouhai do that? Masaki was an intruder on their shared house, he wasn’t supposed to be there! And Morinaga… Souichi couldn’t understand a bit of him!

“Why did he let Masaki stay there? Didn’t Masaki use and hurt him?! Why Morinaga isn’t mad at him? He should be!” Souichi thought a lot about that on his way to the house. He didn’t know why he was so bothered with that. If Morinaga was an idiot and wanted to get hurt again, let him be! “And he should start dating that guy again! This way I’ll get rid of him!” Although Souichi was supposed to be feeling happy that he would finally get rid of Morinaga, he wasn’t the last bit pleased.

He got really used having Morinaga around him. Not that he loved that, but he knew he preferred to have the other around him than far away. After they had sex for the first time and Morinaga disappeared for a few days, Souichi knew he needed to be near the other. He just didn’t want to admit that.

And now that Masaki was around, Souichi was a little bit afraid. Although Morinaga said countless time that he was love with his senpai, Souichi was afraid that Masaki would steal Morinaga away.

“Damn it! What the hell is happening?! I should be happy about this! That fucking idiot is messing up with my mind again! I’m going to kill him!”

When Souichi arrived at the apartment, he tried not to think about that. He shook his head and put the key in the lock, but he got surprised when he realized that the door was already unlocked.

“Maybe that Masaki guy forgot to lock it?” He thought while opening the door, thinking how useless the other was, but then he saw Masaki sitting on the sofa.

“Ah, welcome back. Tatsumi-san.” Masaki said with a smile, getting up. He stretched his neck, trying to see behind Souichi. “Where’s Tetsuhiro?”

Souichi didn’t want to tell Masaki where Morinaga was. Masaki knew a lot more about Morinaga then Souichi did. He didn’t want to share something that he knew and Masaki didn’t. Plus, he was alone with Masaki. He didn’t want to talk to the other. He wanted to be alone and sleep.

“He’s at the university. He still has some work to do.” He said, though he didn’t want to.

“Oh…” Masaki kept quiet for a while, and started to talk again just when Souichi was about to enter his bedroom. “He’s going to come back late?”

Souichi stopped and looked at Masaki. He notice the other’s man hands inside his pant’s pocket, he could see his arms muscles moving a little but he convinced himself that it was nothing. He struggled a little between answering and not answering the question, but he already told Morinaga was at the university, what difference would it make to tell that too?

“I don’t know.” He said quickly and without giving any details. “Wasn’t this guy supposed to be meeting some friends?! Why is he here?!”

“Oh, I see…” Masaki said. Souichi though he was done with asking, so he was again about to enter his bedroom when the other spoke. “So, Tatsumi-san. Are you and Tetsuhiro lovers?”

He suddenly stopped when he heard that, not wanting to believe on his own ears. What was that guy asking?! His cheeks turned bright red and he turned to face Masaki, opening and closing his mouth a few times, trying to say something but not managing to do that.

“So I was right?” Masaki said with a big smile, like he was almost laughing. “Or you don’t know that Tetsuhiro likes guys? Well, you must know, you are his senpai and lives with him…”

“Hell no!” Souichi said, interrupting the other. “I know that he is a homo but we aren’t lovers! We will never be! I’m not a homo!”

Masaki looked at Souichi for some long seconds, watching the other man’s chest go up and down, trying to regain its breath. Then he started laughing, like that were the funniest thing he had ever heard.

“What’s wrong?!” Souichi asked. Did he say something wrong?

“Well, I see. You’re not lovers. Then… Can I get Tetsuhiro back?”

Souichi saw Masaki’s expression slowly changes from its usual happiness to some totally different way, a serious look with some evilness he could never imagine the other had.

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And yes! I decided to make Masaki the evil guy. I want to be as close as possible to Takanaga-sensei’s Masaki. He is a little bit OOC in the first 3 chapters because I hadn’t read the extra chapter where he shows up, but oh well xD
Hope you guys enjoy it. I’m really excited about chapter 5, I have some creepy ideas.
Well, I think this is all I wanted to say…
Happy Halloween again!
Thanks for reading!

Realize it! - Chapter 3

2008-10-19T01:36:18Z

Yay! Third chapter of Realize It! \o\
It took me some time to write it, I was having some problems thinking about what to do. Hope it’s good.
Enjoy! \o\

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Warnings: Nothings for underage here. 18+, please!

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Morinaga looked at the scene with a strange face. He never thought that he would, one day, see that. He looked away when his eyes met Senpai’s, and he tried to ignore the murderer look that his senpai was giving him.

Masaki, on the other hand, seemed very comfortable. He, Souichi and Morinaga were having dinner, sitting at the same table, which caused the atmosphere to become a little heavy.

Morinaga was starting to get really uncomfortable, so he started thinking about what to say. He looked again at Senpai, and decided that it wouldn’t be a good think to start talking to him, so he looked at Masaki.

“Masaki-san, which hotel are you going to stay?” He asked, trying to initiate a conversation. Masaki looked at him and smiled.

“Oh, I didn’t check in at any hotel.” He said, looking a little embarrassed. Souichi stopped eating and drove his attention to him, looking like he could kill at any moment now.

“Well, I think there’s still time for you to go and find one.” Morinaga said in a very gentle tone. “I can go with you, if you want.”

“Actually, Testuhiro…” Masaki started again, and Souichi thought about hitting that fucking idiot, but he controlled himself. “I was thinking about staying here.” He said, looking at the younger guy, cheeks a little bit red. “If it’s ok, of course!”

That surprised Morinaga. He never thought Masaki was intending to stay the night. He bit his lips and looked at Senpai. The older man’s eyes were clearly saying ‘no!’, and Morinaga hesitated a little. He couldn’t say no to Masaki, but he also didn’t want to make Senpai angry. Also, they were going to do it that night!

Morinaga made up his mind, and was going to say ‘no’, when he saw Masaki. He was there, looking at him with such hope inside his eyes, like if Morinaga said ‘yes’ to that, it would mean more to him than just staying the night. Morinaga didn’t know what that meant, but when he talked, he couldn’t stop.

“Yes, you can stay, Masaki-san. There’s no problem.” He said, smiling at his ex-lover.

At that moment, both of them heard a loud noise. Morinaga looked at Senpai and saw that he was up, taking his plate to the sink and them going to his bedroom without saying a word.

“Hn… Did I say something wrong?” Masaki asked, unsure if he interrupted something between the two men.

“No, it’s all right. He’s just like this.” Morinaga said. He knew Senpai didn’t like Masaki. He was aware of Senpai’s reaction when he said that Masaki could stay, he had to be prepared for the older man’s mood. “I’ve finished dinner, Masaki-san. Can I get your plate? I’m going to wash it.” He said, trying to reach for the other man’s dish.

“It’s all right, Tetsuhiro.” He said, taking his own plate and getting up. “You already said it was all right for me to stay here. I don’t want to be a bother to you.” He said, smiling at his ex-lover, and then heading to the sink.

Morinaga didn’t expect that reaction, even more with that smile. He felt his stomach freeze for a second, but then he shook his head, trying to forget that and convince himself that it was nothing.

“I’ll wash it, Masaki-san. Really, there’s no problem.” Morinaga said, taking Masaki’s plate off his hand. Masaki smiled even more with that. Morinaga was still the same gentle guy. Nothing changed.

“Then I’ll help you with it.” Masaki said, and it was clear, by the look in his eyes, that he wouldn’t change his mind. Morinaga sighed and let the other man help him.

Souichi was sit on his bed, thinking what the hell was going on inside Morinaga’s head. That idiot actually let Masaki spend the night! After all that happen to him! He could not believe how stupid his kouhai actually was, and he wanted so bad to hit him! But, at least, they wouldn’t have sex that night.

Although that was supposed to cheer Souichi up, it didn’t. He felt a little bit disappointed by that, and when he noticed what was happening, he wanted to scream and erased all that from his mind! He shut his eyes a little too hard and took a deep breath, trying to forget that and think about something else.

But all he could think about was him. The way Morinaga smiled, kissed him, touched his hair, said that he loved him…

“Fuck! I’m going crazy!” Souichi thought, shaking his head again. He looked around, trying to find something to do. He couldn’t keep on doing nothing, otherwise he would think again about Morinaga. He got up and sat on the chair, near the table. Maybe studying would help.

It was working. He focused a lot on what he was reading and forgot about Morinaga and Masaki. It couldn’t work any better, until…

“Senpai? Can I come in?” The door opened after a few knocks, and Morinaga showed his face. Souichi looked at him and controlled himself not to start yelling.

“What do you want?” He asked, making it clear that he was in a bad mood.

“I want to talk to you. Can I come in?” Morinaga asked again, not making clear what he was there for.

Senpai gave up the idea of getting the other out of there, so he just let him in. Morinaga walked towards him and kept his distance, hesitating a little before start talking.

“Hn… You see… Since Masaki-san is going to stay here, I was thinking where he could sleep. We don’t have any extra bed, and the sofa is really uncomfortable, so I thought about letting him have my bed.” The kouhai said, looking like he was afraid that Senpai would hit him.

“And what do I have to do with it?” Senpai asked, after taking a deep breath to control himself. He could see Morinaga giving an embarrassed smile, and he didn’t like that.

“I offered him my bed. And I was thinking that… I could sleep here with you.”

Souichi took some time to digest what he just heard. Morinaga was trying to sleep in the same bed as he? He got to be joking. There’s really no way Souichi would sleep in the same bed as the other! It didn’t matter that it happened before, it wouldn’t happen again! That would only make Souichi even more confused!

“Hell no!” He said, almost yelling. “Sleep in the sofa!”

“But Senpai! It’s really uncomfortable there! I promise I won’t do anything to you! Please, let me sleep with you!” Morinaga said, almost begging for the other.

“That’s your problem! You are the one who said he could stay here!” Souichi yelled, getting up and making his chair fall, making a loud noise.

“Please, Senpai!” Morinaga asked again, and when Senpai raised his hand, ready to hit him, he took the older man’s hand between his. “Please, Senpai. I really, really want to sleep here with you. I promise I won’t force you, I just… Need to be next to you. It’s been a long time since I was so close to you, I really miss it.” He said, almost whispering. Senpai felt his blood run towards his face, and he was sure that he was really red. He looked away and hid his face with his hair.

“If you do anything I will kick you out of here.” Souichi said in a low tone, not believing that he actually agreed to that.

Souichi wasn’t looking at Morinaga, so didn’t see how happy the other became, giving a sincere smile. The kouhai got closer to the senpai and hugged him, squeezing while he buried his face on the other’s shoulder.

“What the fuc-…?!”

“Thanks, Senpai.” Morinaga said, his voice sounding like he was almost crying. “Really, thank you.”

Senpai looked at Morinaga, still blushing. He bit his lips and raised his arms, ready to hug the other back, but then he changed his mind. He couldn’t hug the other. Why the hell would he? To hug Morinaga would only mean that he was starting to accept the other, and he wasn’t! Or… Was he? That thought made him very angry, so he pushed Morinaga away.

“Stop it! Get out off here! Just come back when you’re ready to sleep!” Senpai said, pushing Morinaga towards the door. The look on Morinaga’s face made it clear that he was confused by Senpai’s reaction, but the older man was confused, too. Why the hell he was so relived that Morinaga would spend the night with him?!

“Wait, Senpai! What happened? I’m sorry, I wouldn’t do anything!” The kouhai said, trying to stop Souichi to push him.

“Shut up! I’m studying, you’re disturbing me!” Souichi yelled, succeeding on getting Morinaga out of him bedroom. He closed the door as soon as he was alone, and locked it, ignoring the fact that Morinaga was trying to say something.

“Did you two have a fight?” Morinaga listened behind him, and turned fast. He forgot, for a moment, that Masaki was there.

“No, no! It’s just that Senpai was studying, he doesn’t like to be bothered while studying…” Morinaga said with an embarrassed tone, letting go a short laugh.

“You’re sure you don’t want to sleep in your bed? I can sleep on the sofa…” Masaki started, but Morinaga interrupted him.

“There’s no problem, really, Masaki-san! It’s all set up, you can sleep in my bedroom.”

“You’re still so kind, Tetsuhiro.” The older man said, raising his arm and putting his hand on Morinaga’s face, who gave a step back.

“Ah, sorry! I wasn’t expecting that!” Morinaga said when he moved and realized that Masaki looked a little disappointed with that. Masaki smiled after what he heard and also took a step back.

“I’m glad you don’t seem to hate me, Tetsuhiro.” He said, looking intensively at Morinaga. “I thought you wouldn’t want to see me again. I’m happy that I’m here and can talk to you like before.”

Morinaga wasn’t expecting to hear that. He took some time to assimilate everything and then turned gradually red. Masaki laughed about that and gave a step closer to his ex-lover.

“Good night, Tetsuhiro.” He said, and gave a kiss on Morinaga’s neck, which was where he could reach with staying tiptoes. After that, he turned around and went to bed, pretending he didn’t see Morinaga’s bright red face.

As for the younger man, he was so shocked with what happened that he didn’t hear the door behind him opened, and he didn’t realize Senpai was there, staring at him with the most killing aura ever, until he felt someone looking at him. He turned as fast as he could, and that made him a little bit dizzy, for his blood was still on his face.

“S-Senpai!” He said when he regained the ability to talk again. “How long have you been there?!”

“Long enough.” Senpai said in a very calm tone, and that was not good. “You’re going to sleep in the sofa.” He said and, with that, he started closing his door, but Morinaga stopped him.

“What?! Why, Senpai?!” The kouhai asked, holding the door with one hand, and he had to use a little bit of effort. Senpai was using too much strength.

“Because! Now let go, I’m going to sleep!” Senpai yelled, pulling the door harder by the doorknob. Morinaga realized that it was going to break soon, and it would only make the other man even angrier, so he managed to get into the bedroom.

“Senpai, I’m going to sleep here! Please, bear with it, it’s only for tonight!” Morinaga said. He could see that his senpai was almost punching him but, somehow, he just turned his back and went to his bed. “I don’t know why you hate it so much, Senpai.”

“Of course I hate it! How could I not hate it?! You force your way in every time you get close enough!” Senpai said, keeping his tone low, he didn’t want that Masaki guy to hear that. The kouhai remained in silent, looking a little bit sad. Senpai wasn’t expecting that, so he got a little surprised. He made a strange noise with his throat, like he was trying to say something, but he gave up and lay down, his back turned to Morinaga.

Morinaga stood there without moving, and without giving a sign that he would move in any near future. Souichi realized that he wasn’t going to bed, so he got pissed off.

“Just come sleep! I can’t stand you there!” Souichi said, moving in the bed and giving space for Morinaga to lie down. The other didn’t move for a few seconds but then he started walking towards the bed. Souichi blushed a little and then turned his back again to Morinaga.

The younger man lay down and, for Souichi’s surprise, he hugged the other from behind, burring his face on Souichi’s hair. It caused him to blush a lot more.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?!” Souichi asked, turning and pushing the other away.

“I’m going to sleep. I like sleeping hugging you, it’s peaceful.” Morinaga said, giving a small smile.

Souichi looked at the other for some seconds. He could not believe he was listening to that. He tried thinking about something to say, but he could think of nothing. He was still feeling the warmth of Morinaga’s arms around him. He remembered Morinaga touching him, taking off his clothes, slowly and gently entering him.

“Senpai, are you alright?” Morinaga asked, seeing that Senpai’s breath was becoming quicker and he thought that what he was hearing was Senpai’s fast heartbeat. The man looked at him, like if just at that moment he realized that he was not alone. He blushed a lot and lay down again, back turned to Morinaga.

“Shut up! Let me sleep!” The senpai said, but the kouhai wasn’t giving up without an answer.

“No, Senpai! What’s wrong?! Please, tell me!” He said, grabbing the other by his shoulder and turning him.

Souichi froze for a second. He could see Morinaga’s eyes looking at his, and then going down to his neck, chest, waist and, finally, hips. He blushed a lot when he saw the younger man eyes widened, and he tried to get himself free, but he was being held with strength.

“Senpai… You… You’re hard!” Morinaga said, like that was the most normal thing in the world, and that only made his senpai blush a lot more.

“Shut up! I’m not!” Senpai said, struggling even more, but Morinaga wasn’t going to let him go.

“You are! Senpai, is that… Is that because of me?”

“Of course not! It’s because… Because…” Souichi tried thinking about something to say at that moment, but he could think of nothing. He would never admit that he was hard, and, moreover, that he was hard because of his kouhai.

Morinaga didn’t give space for the other to continue. He was still holding one of Senpai’s shoulders and, with his other hand, he grabbed the other man’s member over his pajamas, making Senpai moan.

“Stop it! We’re not alone, you fucking idiot! And you said you wouldn’t do anything!” Souichi said, moving back and pushing his back against the cold wall.

“I know. He won’t know what we’re doing if you don’t moan. And I am going to do this, I made you get hard.” Morinaga said, getting closer to Senpai.

“I’m not hard because of you! Don’t come any closer!” Senpai said, pushing Morinaga with his hand, but that wasn’t working. The other was only getting closer and closer.

“I’ll just help you with this, Senpai. I won’t go all the way.” He said, bringing their bodies together. Then, he quickly put his hands inside Senpai’s pants and, before the other could do any protest, he grabbed his member, and anything Senpai would say got out in the form of a moan.

Morinaga slowly started moving his hand, back and forth, stroking it against the hot member. Senpai moaned again, this time in a high tone. The kouhai almost laughed with the idea that Masaki could be listening to them, so he did the only thing that would cover Senpai’s moan: He kissed the other.

Souichi never kissed well when they were having sex or anything that was giving him pleasure. He was too lost in that sensation, he couldn’t focus on two things at the same time. But Morinaga didn’t care. He loved to kiss Senpai like that, it only made him more excited. He pushed his tong inside the other man’s mouth, licking its inside and then focusing on the tong, while the speed of his hand was gradually rising.

He could sense that Senpai was going to come soon. His hand was already pretty much covered with precum, and Senpai’s hips was moving together with the hand that was masturbating him, in a way that would give him more pleasure.

The last moan was loud enough for them to hear it, even thought they didn’t stop kissing. Only then Morinaga break the kiss, getting his hand out of Senpai’s pants and looking at it, covered with the other cum.

“You came a lot and you came fast, Senpai. It’s been a long time since you masturbated yourself, right?” Morinaga asked, and Senpai just didn’t hit him because he was panting too hard.

“Shut up, you idiot! Don’t you ever do this again!” Souichi said, trying to regain his breath.

“Ok.” The kouhai said, but it was not true. He would do it over and over again, as long as it gave Senpai the pleasure that he liked. “But now I’m going to the bathroom to release myself, since we can’t go all the way.” Morinaga said, getting up and heading to the bathroom. He didn’t see Senpai’s shocked face, nor did he listen to what Senpai said.

“Fucking idiot, I’m going to kill you!”

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So, I finally finished this chapter! xD
It’s a bit longer than the others, I wanted to put the bed scene on this chapter 8D’
I know it was quick, but they couldn’t do much more, Masaki is still there. But don’t worry, they will have sex! One day…. hahaha *embarrassed laugh*
So, what did you guys think? Hope you liked this chapter. It’s not the best one I could write, but I tried my best! ._.~
Oh, and yes! I saw the extra chapter where Masaki shows up! And OMG, Masaki, I love you so much!*-* *dies* He is sooooo cool!
Well, he is a lot different from my fic. I like Masaki being shorter than Morinaga, so please, ignore the fact that now he is as tall as Kunihiro i.i *cries*
As for his personality, I don’t know what I’ll do… Maybe I’ll make him as evil as Tanakaga-sensei did? ;D
Well, I’ll think about it.
See you next chapter \o\

Realize it! - Chapter 2

2008-10-09T13:27:25Z

Here is chapter 2! xD
Sorry for the long wait!
Anyway, enjoy! \o\

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.
Warnings: No warnings this time!

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Morinaga had to admit: he was really, really shocked when he saw Masaki there, standing in front of him, smiling like nothing had happened.

“What are you doing here, Masaki-san?!” He asked. He knew it was rude of him, but he couldn’t think of nothing else to say.

Masaki didn’t seem offended with that. He kept smiling, still warm, still gentle, and when he talked, he did it like he was an old friend that missed him very much.

“I’m here to see you. It’s been a long time, right?” He said, watching every single reaction of Morinaga.

Morinaga, on the other hand, couldn’t believe what he was hearing. He was mad at Masaki because of everything that happened. He wanted to yell at Masaki and ask why he did all that, but he couldn’t. Something moved inside of him when he saw Masaki for the first time in so many years.

A warm breeze came in from the door, reminding Morinaga that his shirt was still opened. He startled and closed it as fast as he could, then drove his attention back to Masaki.

“How did you find out that I live here?” He asked, trying to maintain a conversation without being too personal.

“I asked your parents. They didn’t want to give me, though…” Masaki said, making a face a little offended while saying that. They both knew that Morinaga’s parents believed the rumors that spread back then, and they were only trying to protect Masaki, but still, it was very cruel. “I convinced them after some time. But when I got there, the condominium was getting reformed. I didn’t know what to do, but then an old lady came by I gave me this address. She was very kind, I’m glad I ran into her!”

Morinaga bit his tong. The old lady was the landlady. Morinaga told her he was moving, and gave her the address just in case something happened. He knew it wasn’t her fault, but he didn’t want to meet Masaki. He had Senpai, he didn’t need anyone else.

“Can I come in?” Masaki asked, after they remained in silent for a little longer. Morinaga them realized that, and moved, giving Masaki space to come in.

The younger man followed Masaki with his eyes. Masaki looked at the apartment in a very discrete way, walked a little towards the living room, and then turned back to Morinaga, still smiling.

“Er…” Morinaga started, not really knowing what to say. He looked around the apartment, thinking about something. “Have a sit. Do you want something to drink? Are you hungry?”

Masaki smiled, happy with what he heard. Morinaga was still the same kind boy he used to date. He thought that maybe Morinaga was mad at him, and would be rude and kick him out as soon as their eyes met, but he as wrong, and he was glad that he was.

“No, I’m fine. Thank you.” He said, while going to the sofa and sitting there. Morinaga was still up, at the same place he was when Masaki arrived. “Sit here, Tetsuhiro.” He said, pointing a place next to him, while containing his laugh.

Morinaga obeyed to that, and sat where Masaki pointed. He was feeling uneasy, being around the person who caused him so much pain, and yet not being able to be mad at him. Masaki seemed to notice that, and started talking.

“It’s been a really long time. I feel like I don’t know anything about you anymore, Tetsuhiro. How are things doing? Are you at university now?” He asked, trying to initiate a conversation.

“Yes, I am.” Morinaga answered, and didn’t say anything else. He could see from the corner of his eyes that Masaki looked a little disappointed. Morinaga had to admit, he was being rude. There was Masaki, trying to be friends with him again, and he was being so against it for no reason. He took a deep breath and said, continuing the subject. “I’m studying at local university. What are you doing now, Masaki-san? Are you working?”

Masaki looked really happy with that. He was starting to think again that Morinaga was mad at him and was trying to hide that, but seeing him talking to him, like he was interested, really made Masaki more relaxed.

“Yes, I am. At a company in Fukuoka. I’m on vacations right now, so I came by to see you.” He said, looking at his own hands and kind of blushing. Morinaga looked at him, confused with that reaction, but thought it was only his imagination.

He didn’t know what to say after that. Masaki lifted his eyes to look at him, a red tone still under then. Morinaga blushed and that surprised him, he turned to the other side and bit his lips.

“What is happening?!” He thought, still not looking at the other man. “This is Masaki-san! It’s just him, nobody else. There’s nothing between us, I’m not that kid anymore, so what’s happening?!” He would keep on thinking, but then a strange smell took him back to reality. It took him some time to realize that the food might be starting to burn. “Ah! Dinner!” He said, quickly getting up and running towards the oven.

Masaki watched the scene with a little curiosity. He didn’t know Tetsuhiro could cook, but he was almost sure that it would be a good meal. He smiled while watching the younger man grabbing the food and carefully putting it on the table. He got up the sofa and went there.

“It looks good.” He said when he was close enough. Morinaga didn’t seem to notice the other coming closer so he gave a little jump, making Masaki laugh. “It smells good too, I don’t think it burnt.”

Morinaga looked at Masaki. He was dangerously close, so he took a step back. Masaki looked at him and smiled, moving his hand towards his face. Morinaga closed his eyes, he didn’t know what Masaki would do and he didn’t want to see it.

“Your hair. It’s wet. Let’s dry it, or you’ll catch a cold.” Masaki took the towel around Morinaga’s neck and started drying his hair. He opened his eyes and looked inside Masaki’s. He didn’t think the other would do that, so he was surprised.

Masaki was good at that. He had gentle fingers and dried Morinaga’s hair in a way that felt really good. Masaki was shorter then Morinaga, so he had to stay tiptoe and get closer to the other, making body contact. The younger man decided to ignore that and relax, so he closed his eyes and enjoyed the moment.

Souichi finally finished the work for that day. Not having Morinaga’s help was frustrating and the experience took a lot of time, so he was mad. He gathered his things, put them on his bag and left the lab, heading home.

He bit his lips, knowing what would happen when he got there. He and Morinaga would do it. Somehow, he wasn’t that angry anymore, that idea seemed to calm him down. When he realized that, he got even angrier than he was before. Morinaga would pay for that! Souichi would never have sex with him again. Neither that night, nor any other night!

When Souichi reached the door, he took a deep breath. He had to be prepared, Morinaga would surely attack him on the moment he got in. He unlocked the door and entered the apartment. He looked around and saw something really weird.

Morinaga was looking at him with a completely shocked expression, he was almost saying ‘Senpai! What are you doing here?!’, like he had forgotten that Souichi lived there too. The guy next to Morinaga was with an undecipherable expression on his face.

Souichi didn’t know who the guy was, he had never seen him at the university, so he assumed that he didn’t study there. Souichi thought it was weird for the guy to be wearing a long-sleeve shirt, since it was hot outside and inside the house. The guy kept his hands on Morinaga’s hair and looked like he wasn’t bothered with the presence of the other man. Souichi looked at their position and thought what the hell was going on and if he was interrupting something. Somehow, what he saw really bothered him.

“Tetsuhiro, is this your friend?” The guy asked, looking at Morinaga. Senpai did not like the way that guy called Morinaga, or the way he was talking to him. Who the hell that guy thinks he is?

Morinaga opened his mouth to answer to the question, but Senpai interrupted him.

“Morinaga, who is this guy?” He asked with a tone that made clear that he wasn’t happy. Morinaga looked at Senpai, and then at Masaki. He didn’t know what Senpai’s reaction would be when he found out that that guy was Masaki, and he kind of didn’t want to find out, but Senpai was starting to get impatient, waiting for the answer.

“Sorry, I will be right back.” Morinaga said to Masaki, getting away from him and going next to Senpai. “Senpai, can we talk?” He asked, and didn’t wait for Senpai’s answer, grabbing his arm and going to Senpai’s bedroom, which was closer to them.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?!” Senpai asked, pulling his arm and getting free from Morinaga’s hand.

“Senpai, that guy is…” The kouhai started, not knowing how to continue. Souichi crossed his arms, starting to get really impatient. “Well…” Morinaga got closer to Senpai, and took a deep breath before going back to talk. “That guy is Masaki-san.”

Morinaga watched Senpai’s eyes widened, and he could feel Senpai taking a deep breath to start shouting, when Morinaga covered his mouth with his hand.

“Senpai, don’t yell!” He said, ignoring the protests from Senpai. “Calm down! He didn’t do anything. He’s here just to visit!” He could feel Senpai struggling even more, and he had to use more force to keep pressing his hand against Senpai’s mouth, but he didn’t let go. It took some time for Senpai to calm down, and then Morinaga let go of his mouth.

“To visit?! And you let him get in?!” Souichi couldn’t believe how stupid his kouhai was, being so nice and happy around the one whom caused him so much pain. “You’re so stupid! Get him out of here!” He said, keeping his voice down but still showing how upset he was.

“Why can’t he stay, Senpai?!” Morinaga asked, not believing in Senpai’s reaction. “He wants to talk to me! What happened was a long time ago, I don’t care about it anymore!”

“Shut up!” Senpai yelled, closing his fist, and he had to take a deep breath to calm down. “I don’t want him next to you, get him out of here!” He said, not realizing what just came out of his mouth.

Morinaga stopped, looking shocked at Senpai. It took the older man some time to realize what he said, and then he blushed a lot, looking away from Morinaga’s eyes. Why the hell did he say that?! Morinaga was not his, he had nothing to do with Morinaga! It didn’t matter who Morinaga was with! Souichi had nothing to do with that!

“Damn! I didn’t mean it that way.” He said in a low tone, but Morinaga seemed to ignore that. The younger man felt really happy, seeing that Senpai seemed to be jealous.

“You don’t have to worry, Senpai.” Morinaga said, getting closer to Senpai, putting one arm around his waist and one hand on the back of his neck. “I promise you nothing will happen.” He whispered, his mouth dangerously close to Senpai’s.

“Let me go! You misunderstood!” Senpai said, trying to get rid of Morinaga’s hand, but not being able to. Morinaga smiled and looked Senpai deep inside his eyes.

“I don’t love Masaki anymore. He means nothing to me now. I only care about you, Senpai. I love you. I love you even more than I loved Masaki.” He said. Senpai blushed a lot, it looked like all his blood was on his face.

“What are you saying?! Fuck, let me-!”

Souichi couldn’t finish his sentence because Morinaga kissed him, licking his lips and forcing his way inside his mouth. Souichi closed his eyes and tried to say something, but failed to that. Morinaga pulled Souichi’s body closer to his, turning his head so that their faces would fit better.

Morinaga focused on the kiss, licking the inside of Senpai’s mouth and playing with his tong. Senpai was pissed off, Morinaga always misunderstood the things that he said, and so he was kissing him with some violence, pushing his tong deep inside Morinaga’s mouth.

They only broke the kiss when they were in desperate need of air. They were panting, and Morinaga took a tuft of Senpai’s hair away from the man’s face. He smiled and then took a step back.

Souichi looked at his kouhai with an angry face. He was angry with himself, for loosing the capacity of being angry with Morinaga. He could get mad with his kouhai, but every time they kissed, he forgot all that. Morinaga was so good at kissing that Souichi could think of nothing else.

“Senpai, I made your favorite food. I think Masaki-san will join us for dinner. I’m sorry, I know you agreed to have sex, we will do it! Please, just be patient while Masaki-san is here.”

Senpai got embarrassed and closed his fist, but he couldn’t hit Morinaga. He was still thinking about the kiss. So he turned his head and closed his eyes.

“Do whatever you want. I don’t care, it’s you that want to do it.” He said in an angry tone. Morinaga smiled and got out of the bedroom, joining Masaki again.

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So, what did you guys think? xD
It’s probably just me, but I find it very difficult to control Masaki-san. He only showed up at the manga for a few pages, so I don’t know much about him. I think he turned out a little bit OOC.
Well, forgetting Masaki’s OOC, I hope you guys enjoyed it!
Thanks for reading.
Bai bai x*

Realize it! - Chapter 1

2008-09-22T00:36:30Z

Hey! xD
I’m new here. Nice to meet you!
I don’t know the rules here, so… Sorry if I did anything wrong! i.i *scared*
Well, this is my first Koi Suru Boukun fanfic. This is also my first fanfic in English. Yes, English is not my first language, you all must be used to it, so... Sorry about the mistakes! I tried my best but, oh well xD
And I’m not very good at picking titles, so try to ignore this one!
Sorry, I will stop talking i.i
Now... Enjoy! \o\ (or not i.i)

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Disclaimer: Takanaga-sensei owns everything about Koi Suru Boukun. I just like to play a little with it.

No warnings this time!

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Souichi woke up in the morning with the annoying sound of his alarm clock. He slowly opened his eyes and turned that thing off. It took him some time to recover his senses, but soon he smelled coffee. Sweet coffee, surely waiting for him.

He got up the bed and, after changing his clothes and unlocking the door, he found out that Morinaga was already up and was patiently waiting for his senpai to join him in breakfast, and as soon as their eyes met, the younger man smiled.

“Good morning, senpai! Did you sleep well?” He asked, with a sweet voice filled up with his usual good mood in the morning.

“Yeah, yeah.” Souichi answered without much interest, sitting on a chair and grabbing a cup, which Morinaga filled up with coffee.

They remained in silent for a bit longer. It has already been three months since they started living together and, somehow, for Souichi’s luck and Morinaga’s unlucky, they only did it one time. Because Souichi was seriously drunk and his kouhai took advantage of it. Senpai didn’t remember very well how they ended up doing it, and he did not want to remember. The fact is, Morinaga was holding up very well.

“Hey, senpai, today I will start a new experiment that Yamada-sensei asked me to, so I don’t think I will be quite able to help you, but I will try me best!”

Souichi looked at him while taking a sip from his coffee. He didn’t like the fact that Morinaga wasn’t going to help him as much as always, and that surely pissed him off, but there was nothing he could do. So he just rolled his eyes and got up, heading to the bathroom, saying a ‘do as you want’ on his way.

Morinaga smiled with that and, after he was done with breakfast, he got up and went to his bedroom. He looked at his unmade bed and sighed. The truth is, he was reaching his limit. He wanted to do it with senpai, but the other one just didn’t let him. It was luck that Senpai got sufficiently drunk one day, but he knew, on the moment that both of them woke up, that that wouldn’t happen again. So he started thinking about another plan. Senpai always locked the door when he was in his bedroom, was it day or night, and he was clever enough to stop Morinaga at the right point. Truth is, Morinaga was starting to think that his senpai didn’t want him anymore, although that day at the hotel, senpai started the whole thing.
But he didn’t want to force on his senpai. He knew he could always do that, and that surely would work, but he promised that he wouldn’t try anything, and he didn’t want senpai to be mad at him. So he was patiently waiting the day that senpai would reach his limit too, though he was starting to doubt that would happen.

Morinaga got back to reality when he heard a cough coming from behind. He turned and looked at senpai supporting his body on the door, with a not very good face.

“Oi, pervert. What the hell are you thinking about so early in the morning?” Senpai asked with a very calm voice, but it was obvious that he wasn’t happy.

“Nothing senpai, I swear! I was only...” He stopped in the middle of his sentence, with an embarrassed smile on his face, without knowing how to continue.

“You liar! Pervert, stop thinking about this shit!” Senpai yelled, hitting Morinaga with a closed fist right on his face, making him fall. His kouhai just stood on the floor, saying a long sequence of ‘I’m sorry, senpai”, not looking like he would finish it that early.
Senpai turned his back and said something about ‘going to be late’, and Morinaga hurried to get ready.

The way to the university wasn’t long, but it seemed much longer when the two of then didn’t said anything. Senpai was still mad, so Morinaga tried his best to stay quiet and not say anything that would make senpai even angrier. Soon they were inside the building, and each one now had to go to a different class.

“See you later, senpai!” The kouhai said with a smile on his face, and waved. Senpai only nodded his head and went to his classroom.

“Senpai is still mad...” Morinaga though, while making his way to his classroom. “I should do something to improve his mood, but I can’t think of anything. It’s not my fault, I know I promised I wouldn’t do anything he didn’t want, and I won’t! It’s just that... I have my needs!” He reached his classroom and took his usual sit, but he didn’t stop thinking about senpai even when the teacher came in. And that went on, on almost every classes, every time. Morinaga was happy when the time to go to the lab came. He got up faster than anyone else and head to the lab, arriving there before senpai. He looked around and started to gather things he would need to the experiment. Senpai came in on the mean-time and just sat, continuing his experiments.

“Senpai, are you sure you don’t need any help? You know, I can help you now and continue this experiment later…” Morinaga started, stopping what he was doing for a second, looking at his senpai.

“I don’t need it, do your experiment. And stop talking, that way you should be able to finish earlier.” Souichi said without taking his eyes off his experiment. Morinaga just smiled, and went back to his own work.

They remained in silent from that moment on. Souichi looked really focused on his experiment, and Morinaga didn’t want to disturb him, but every time the two of them were alone (which was most part of the day), the younger man couldn’t help but to think about doing that. He really was reaching his limit.

He started considering asking senpai if he wanted to do it. He was almost sure that the answer would be a hit right on his face and mad ‘no’, but he had to try. Better than losing his self-control, he wanted senpai to realize that, if he didn’t do that with Morinaga as soon as possible, the other one would attack him.

“Hn… Senpai?” Morinaga started with a very hesitating tone, looking at the back of his senpai.

“What?” He asked, still not looking at his kouhai.

Morinaga walked towards him, stopping when he was almost touching senpai’s back. He lowered his back a little to reach senpai’s ear with his mouth, and asked, in a whisper.
“Tonight… Is it ok to do it?”

The younger man watched as senpai’s ear slowly turned red, then his cheeks and then his whole face. The older man looked him with a furious look and hit him on the face, knocking him down.

“Of course not, you pervert! Stop saying this nonsense, I won’t do this with you! You said you wouldn’t force me!” He yelled, not seeming to care if there were people outside or not.
“I know.” Morinaga said with a funny voice, since his hand was covering his nose that was bleeding. “That’s why I’m asking you.” He stood up with some difficult, and maintained his distance from senpai. “Senpai, you know, I have my limit. And I think I’m reaching it.” He said with a very calm voice, now coming closer to senpai, who took a step back but was stopped by the table he was working at. “If you don’t agree to do it, I’ll have to break my promise and force you.” Morinaga said, now next to senpai, his body brushing against senpai’s body, and the look on his face made it clear to the other man that he was really going to force his way in if senpai didn’t agree.

“You can’t do this, Morinaga! You promised!” Senpai said, not really knowing what to say to make his kouhai stop.

“Yeah?” He asked, looking like he was really interested. “You also promised that we’d do this once a week.” Souichi wanted to protest, that promised was made a long time ago and no longer existed, but when Morinaga took one more step closer to him, putting his hand around the other’s body and kissing him on the lips, then kissing his neck, only to start biting it the next second, senpai gave up on that idea.

Souichi shut his eyes and started thinking about what to do, but his mind was blank. It did hurt when Morinaga bit his neck, but it was also, in some weird way, very good. He bit both of his lips, stopping a moan to get free.

Morinaga moved one of his hands to Senpai’s pant, unzipping it. The other hand went inside Senpai’s shirt, quickly touching and squeezing one of his nipples.

This time, senpai did moan. “Shit! I need to stop him!” he though, knowing that if it were to go further, his kouhai wouldn’t be able to stop.

“Stop! Stop it!” He said, not being able to yell, but getting really close to that. He tried pushing Morinaga away, but he was too weak at that moment. “I get it! I’ll do it with you, but let me go!”

Morinaga listened to that and stopped. He looked at senpai, one hand still inside his shirt and the other about to enter his pant. The younger man smiled, and zipped again senpai’s pant.

“Ok. I can’t wait until tonight. Don’t forget, senpai. You promised.” He said, moving away from senpai and heading back to his experiment.

Souichi just stood there, looking shocked at Morinaga. That bastard always found out a way to make Souichi does whatever he wanted. He swallowed hard, trying to calm down his heartbeat, that was really fast, and then turned around, trying to concentrate again on what he was doing, but not being able to. He still felt Morinaga’s warm on his chest, neck and waist. Shit, the man really knew how to confuse Souichi.

A few hours latter Morinaga finished what Yamada-sensei asked him to do, and then he went next to senpai.

“Senpai, do you need any help? I’ve finished my experiment.”

Souichi trembled when Morinaga began to talk. Although he was doing his experiment, he still though, from time to time, of what he and Morinaga would do that night. He was not anxious – or so was he trying to convince himself, it’s just that he didn’t want to do that. He was not a god damn homo, then why the hell did he agree to do that?!

When senpai didn’t answer, Morinaga touched his shoulder just to call his attention, but senpai startled and moved away from Morinaga’s hand.

“What?” He asked, after he recovered from the fright, still away from Morinaga and with a high heartbeat.

“I asked if you need any help.” His kouhai said, smiling a little.

“No, I don’t.” He lied. He needed help, but he didn’t want help from Morinaga. He was already confused enough without him, with him would be much worst.

Morinaga seemed to notice that senpai was lying, but he didn’t say anything. He continued smiling and said:

“Ok. Then I’m going home, I’ll make dinner. If you need any help, you can call, ok?” He asked with a sweet tone. He tried to get closer to senpai, but the older man took a step back. “See you later, senpai.” And then Morinaga turned away and left the lab.

When Souichi was alone, he felt like he could finally relax. He worried about Morinaga, he knew his kouhai could force his way at the university not caring about what Souichi wanted, but more important, Souichi was pissed off. He was pissed off because Morinaga wanted to have sex with him. He was pissed off because he agreed to it. But what pissed him off the most was that he was anxious with it!

“Fuck, what the hell Morinaga did to me?! Why the hell do I feel like I want to do it with him?! I don’t want to do it with him! I’m not a fucking homo!” He kept thinking about how weird he was that day, thinking about what Morinaga would do to him that night, when he broke a glass. That scared him and then he forced to pay more attention to what he was doing and forget about Morinaga for now, otherwise he would hurt himself.

On the way home, Morinaga was thinking about what to do for dinner. Something special? After all, that was a special a special night. He and senpai would finally do it. Maybe waiting wasn’t that bad at all. Not that senpai was happily agreeing to that, but he didn’t reject Morinaga as he thought the other would. Although he had to admit he was a bit forceful, he wouldn’t do it if senpai didn’t want. Did senpai know that?

When Morinaga got home, he started thinking about what to do first. Should he shower now or later? What should he make for dinner? He remained still for a few minutes, until decide that he would cook senpai’s favorite food, and then shower when he had time.

He carefully started to make dinner, he didn’t want the food to turn out to taste bad. He had done that plate a few times, but today it had to be beyond good. He left it inside the oven and then decided to take a shower while it wasn’t ready.

The hot water hit against his back and he tried to relax. Not having sex with senpai for too long did make him a little bit nervous, just a little. He knew he had to try hard every time they did it, so that senpai would like it so bad that he wouldn’t spend one night not wanting to do it.

So, what would Morinaga do today? He had to think about new things, he didn’t want senpai to be tired of sex, he always had to improve. It was a sweet challenge, he liked to think about what to do. Sometimes senpai liked it, sometimes not. It was always a new reaction senpai did, and Morinaga loved them all.

Morinaga got out of the shower and put on his clothes. It was hot so he left opened the buttons of his shirt. He walked towards the kitchen while drying his hair with his towel. He looked inside the oven and found out that it would take a few more minutes for the food to be ready, and he was thinking about what to in that meantime, when the doorbell rang.
Morinaga turned and stared at the door for some seconds, and then it rang again. He thought about who could that be while he was making his way to the door. Could it be Kanako? No, she always called before going there. Hiroto-kun? No, it couldn’t be. Hiroto was working that night. So, the only person he could think about was senpai.

“Senpai, is that you? Did you forget your keys?” He asked, while opening the door. But whom he saw wasn’t senpai, neither Kanako nor Hiroto-kun.

Morinaga couldn’t hide the shock and surprise on his face. He opened his mouth, trying to say something, but he couldn’t think of anything, and even if he could, he thought he wouldn’t be able to say it.

“Tetsuhiro, you’ve grown.” The person said with a calm voice and a warm smile. Morinaga again didn’t say anything, taking some more time so he could be able to speak.

“What are you doing here, Masaki-san?!”

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So, what do you guys think?! xD
I always wondered with myself what would happen if Masaki showed up from nowhere. I don’t know if Takanaga-sensei will do this one day, but I really wish she does! i.i
Meanwhile I will try to be happy with my history.
So, if you liked it, leave a comment! If don’t, leave one too, but pleeeease, try to be nice with me!
I’m kind of a lazy person, but I’ll try to upload a new chapter as soon as possible. Hope it doesn’t take too long i.i
Thanks a lot for reading this!
Bai bai \o\

New here

2008-09-21T23:06:51Z

So, I'm new at this live journal stuff.
Hello everybody! xD
I will only post fanfics here (this is my original plan, hope it continues like this xD)
So, there's nothing I would like to say here, I think i.i
Hope you guys enjoy my fanfics! xD
Thanks a lot.
Bai bai x*